shizwiz

I am in the very beginning phase of my journey.
 
Well, scratch that. I was overweight as a kid, a teen, a young adult (well, I'm not super old yet)....but oh what I would give to go back to what I weighed when I THOUGHT I was super fat.
Fast forward...I am almost 30 and weigh almost 300lbs. Holy. Cow.
 
When I look around the room, I am always the heaviest person in the room. When I look in mirrors, I look OK... to myself. Still fat, but dang. But in pictures, I look huge...because I am! What happens in that lense?! I have a pemanent double chin. I wear leggings and yoga pants because jeans hurt.
 
I have tried Medifast, Atkins, HcG, Weight Watchers, not eating, over eating, no carbs, low carbs, you name it.
 
And you know what?
 
I can out eat most men grown men.
 
Well, I am going to stop that. I want to get help, lose some of my stomach, and get into a place where I can be healthy, happy....and feel normal. I want people to notice me for my eyes or for my laugh instead of for my girth.
 
My insurance does not cover obesity- it is an exclusion. I am paying for this out of pocket with my savings. (Yikes!)
 
I have some support from my boyfriend (who is being pretty awesome about this), my grandma and my family (kind of). No one wants me to go to Mexico and get my stomach cut out, but they all support my decision. I have one friend who is completely against it. Oh well.
 
I think I can do this...I know I can. And I am EXCITED!