OK, ok.....ENOUGH!!!

[Foxxy 0]

I have gained about 4-5 lbs in these last few weeks. I've stopped going to the gym because I haven't paid, but that's just another excuse for me....IM BEING SUPER LAZY AND BACKSLIDING!!!! Im done with it. It may only be 4-5 lbs, but I can really feel it. :thumbup: I've lost the energy I had when I did go to the gym and was eating better and I feel super bloated, maybe its all in my "mind", but its getting to me! So today, Im done with the excuses and getting back up on this dang wagon. I need this for me!!! WHO'S WITH ME??????

I know that I have a somewhat good restriction, I just eat horribly, and more than I should, to the point that it hurts my port, seriously!! I can't fool myself anymore, and it embarrasses me when people ask why I had the surgery if it's not doing anything for me? I can't take it anymore!!! I vow that from this day forward, no more lies, no more JUNK, no more candy, no MORE MORE!!

Ok, here goes EVERYTHING...........

[Yvette1026 0]

You can do it! Be encouraged, so everything one day at a time, actually one meal at a time. Just think, hmm yes I COULD eat that, but it's going to move me further away from goal. If I this.. it puts me closer to my goal.. Day by day, choice by choice. You WILL succeed.

[NurseMelly 0]

Good for you Foxxy! Get back on track =)

My port kills me when I overeat too! I get so mad at myself when I do that so I know exactly what you're talking about. It's hard to break old habits sometimes though. We just have to keep working at it!

[mommabeth70 0]

i think that it is wonderful that u are still going forth and realizing what has to change and thinnk that u have been able to inspire me when i feel what is the use. Best wishes

[Foxxy 0]

1st step, I just paid my gym fees.....

[Dragonangel413 0]

Funny thing, I just told myself the same thing this morning! Time to step it up and do this to the fullest! We're all here for support!

[Foxxy 0]

i think that it is wonderful that u are still going forth and realizing what has to change and thinnk that u have been able to inspire me when i feel what is the use. Best wishes

Thanks!!! I think that we too often just say "Oh well, the hell with it, Ill do it tomorrow" and then never do it. I have to take responsibility for myself and get off my (not for long) fat ass and get to work!! No one is gonna do it for me, although I wish they could, but Im just fooling myself.

[JULIEM81 0]

I am so there with you!!! I had lost 85 pounds and have gained back just over 20 in the past 2.5 to 3 months and I hate myself for it! I miss my size 16's!!! Granted, I'm thankful to still be much smaller than I was this time last year, but when I think of where I could be it makes me sick. I went this morning for a fill and made the decision to start over. No more will I give in to this awful cycle of feeling bad about myself, eating for comfort, and then feeling even worse. I feel like I just set myself up to fail over the last few months. I actually thought more than once, well, a size 16 is about the best I can probably do so I guess this is it... at my lowest I was 204 and now that seems so far away again. No more though!!! My doctor said it well this morning as I was leaving - welcome back on the "band" wagon, lol. Good luck!!!