iM FAT BECAUSE HE MADE ME THiS WAY! i W0NT BE A ViCTiM ANy L0NGER!!!

[Ready4-a-new-me 0]

Hey everyone. First and foremost let me just say all of you are wonderful and reading your post everyday keeps me going. Anywho im a 21 year old college student. Im currently 5'2 300 pounds. How did I gain so much weight? It all started when I was 4 years old. I was molested by my step uncle. Then when I was 6 I started being molested by my step father, then at 11 by my step cousin. Yes all these people in the same family. About the age of 10 I was tired of being molested and I felt if I made myself a fat & ugly person that it would turn them off. So I started gaining weight rapidly. So now at 21 years old looking in the mirror is a constant reminder of my past and what happened to me!!!! And im ready to change it!!! AS 0F Right now I do believe im a very beautiful girl with a pretty face (picture below) but with a horrible body. I started my lap band surgery in january or 2008. Then I found out my insurance didn't cover it. So I gave up. Then in may of 2009 I inquired again with my new insurance. I now have blue cross blue shield of minnesota. They required a 6 month medically suprivised diet. I was so in a rush that I was upset that I would have to wait 6 more months. I just got a call about 5 mins ago. IM APPROVED!!!!!!!! My surgery date is N0VEMBER 13, 2009. I feel like im finally making a step towards progress.

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[HappyHomeCC 2]

go for it!!! you have lots of support here! Congratulations on you insuWho rance approval, and decided to grab on to life!!!!

[steelergirl 0]

Hey everyone. First and foremost let me just say all of you are wonderful and reading your post everyday keeps me going. Anywho im a 21 year old college student. Im currently 5'2 300 pounds. How did I gain so much weight? It all started when I was 4 years old. I was molested by my step uncle. Then when I was 6 I started being molested by my step father, then at 11 by my step cousin. Yes all these people in the same family. About the age of 10 I was tired of being molested and I felt if I made myself a fat & ugly person that it would turn them off. So I started gaining weight rapidly. So now at 21 years old looking in the mirror is a constant reminder of my past and what happened to me!!!! And im ready to change it!!! AS 0F Right now I do believe im a very beautiful girl with a pretty face (picture below) but with a horrible body. I started my lap band surgery in january or 2008. Then I found out my insurance didn't cover it. So I gave up. Then in may of 2009 I inquired again with my new insurance. I now have blue cross blue shield of minnesota. They required a 6 month medically suprivised diet. I was so in a rush that I was upset that I would have to wait 6 more months. I just got a call about 5 mins ago. IM APPROVED!!!!!!!! My surgery date is N0VEMBER 13, 2009. I feel like im finally making a step towards progress.

http://i45.photobucket.com/albums/f80/ladybigtizz/IMG0026.jpg

CONGRATS!

Please remember that those early self-thoughts do not go away overnight. Please continue to reach out and share with those you trust. Throughout your journey you will have many, many roadblocks and emotions that come rushing forward........I encourage you to work through them and conquer!!!!!!!!! Best of luck 2 u!!!:scared2::thumbup::thumbup:

[jtsobx 0]

:thumbup:congratulations and good luck to you. look to the future.my surgery is november 6th:thumbup:

[KayleighsMommy 16]

Hey everyone. First and foremost let me just say all of you are wonderful and reading your post everyday keeps me going. Anywho im a 21 year old college student. Im currently 5'2 300 pounds. How did I gain so much weight? It all started when I was 4 years old. I was molested by my step uncle. Then when I was 6 I started being molested by my step father, then at 11 by my step cousin. Yes all these people in the same family. About the age of 10 I was tired of being molested and I felt if I made myself a fat & ugly person that it would turn them off. So I started gaining weight rapidly. So now at 21 years old looking in the mirror is a constant reminder of my past and what happened to me!!!! And im ready to change it!!! AS 0F Right now I do believe im a very beautiful girl with a pretty face (picture below) but with a horrible body. I started my lap band surgery in january or 2008. Then I found out my insurance didn't cover it. So I gave up. Then in may of 2009 I inquired again with my new insurance. I now have blue cross blue shield of minnesota. They required a 6 month medically suprivised diet. I was so in a rush that I was upset that I would have to wait 6 more months. I just got a call about 5 mins ago. IM APPROVED!!!!!!!! My surgery date is N0VEMBER 13, 2009. I feel like im finally making a step towards progress.

http://i45.photobucket.com/albums/f80/ladybigtizz/IMG0026.jpg

I'm so sorry about what you have been through. I just recently (in the last couple of years) have come to the conclusion that I was moslested by my grandfather at the same age (4 or so) So, I can, somewhat, relate to what you have been through.

I know this doesn't help much... but be glad there is something you can do to make your life better. You are still young, and have a long and soon to be heathier) life ahead of you.

Also... please, please, please seek counseling if you are not already in it. The band is a great tool, but it will not help with emotional issues. Please forgive me if I am saying what you already know.

I am so happy your insurance came through for good. I wish you the best.

[stl2atl07 0]

Congratulations on your recent approval. You sound like you have a great outlook on things. I did the same as you and hid myself in an obese body. Therapy has helped me let go of some, not all, of those memories. It can be very helpful. Good luck on your journey.