The guilt and stretching out my stomach...

[sfchick 0]

I'm 27 days post op, and I've blown it over the last several days.

I have started eating a little thicker Soups like won ton Soup, and low sodium chicken vegatable Soup. I had a steamed potsticker the other day, and I'm not having any problems.

Typically I Water down cartons of Soups with low sodium broth. Then I put in a tablespoon of Greek yogurt to get the Protein and make the soup a little thicker, with less calories. I find that if I eat it with a soup, I slow down...

I haven't had a soda, or alcohol for 6 weeks, and feel great about it. The great thing about the band, is I eat so much slower...and I'm so aware of what I eat...

Over the last two weeks, I have been "cheating". I was recently somewhere, where there was no food, except fast food. I ate a childs hamburger, without dressing, no lettuce, and seemed to do ok. But, today, I had 3 pieces of wheat toast, with two pieces (each piece 3 inches long) soy Protein chicken. I feel HORRIBLE, and the guilt is overwhelming. This was in one sitting. Sometimes I forget to eat, and then it dawns on me that I'm starving. I am also taking a perscription twice a day to prevent kidney and gallstones, which must be taken with food. I can't seem to get it together right now.

I've been on clears for 3 weeks, and recently started "mushies". eggs, tofu, soy soft hotdogs, etc.

Can I stretch out my stomach by cheating over the last few days?

I haven't had a fill yet, and I'm concerned. This is gross, but I actually tried to make myself sick to get rid of the food, but I found it IMPOSSIBLE to be sick.

Guess I just needed to post, to write down, what the head is going on in my head.

I've only lost about 10 pounds, and it's so super slow.

I go in for my first fill right before Thanksgiving....

Sorry to ramble, but I recently found this site, and it really makes a person feel not so lonely....

[bambam31 168]

Do some searches for Bandster Hell - it will help explain what you're experiencing. One things' for certain... you're definitely not alone... :cursing:

[sfchick 0]

Thanks BamBam.....:cursing: