bad habits - I need to stop NOW

[lovecats85 2]

I love my band thanks to the weight loss but I can tell already I am forming bad mental habits that apper to be replacing my bad eating habits. Why can't I just be bad-habit free? I am obessing about my band - is it infected, is it slipping, etc. -- and worse, I am obessing about weight and food. I weigh myself at least 2 times a day even though I repeat my mantra of "this is time to heal not to lose". I get depressed that I haven't lost in 4 days even though logically I know it's only been 4 days and I did switch to mush so no loss is expected, but yet I still feel sad. It's so dumb b/c i never felt this sad when I would diet for a month and only lose one little pound! Also, I feel like a PIG since I went on mushies when in reality I normally eat like I did yesterday - 1 Protein Shake, 2 cans Soup, 4 crackers, and 3 bites of ice cream - that's what I would have for a snack pre-band and now I feel like a total pig b/c I ate "all" that. My brain is so having a devil/angel argument with itself!!!! Sorry for the rant! If I didn't have you guys to vent to I could never have done this!

[Kelliebelly 13]

Hi

That is how I was, and sometimes still am. If someone posts something about a slip or symptoms they have, I will start talking myself into maybe having the symptoms also. I am really scared of what can happen, but kind of console myself with the fact that if I take care of my band everything will be ok.

When I went onto solids after fluids etc I put on about 5kg, and just went up and down 2 kgs or so for the next month or more. Once I found restriction after 8 fills, the weight started coming off again. It is all about healing in the first 6 weeks and in most ppl the band is really not alot unless it is filled properly.

I just wanted to let you know that all your worries and concerns are normal and what most of us feel as well.

[Anwyn 0]

Laura,

I know what you mean! This is a mental journey even more than a physical one. I remember thinking the same thing when I switched from liquids to mushies. Oh my God! I ate 1000 calories today! Now I'm going to gain weight!

Our pre-banded selves would crack up at this thinking. I'm still relatively fresh from surgery (3 months out) and I find myself getting depressed when I leave food on my plate. I know I should be glad that I can't eat it, yet sometimes it makes me so sad!

At any rate, you're still very fresh from surgery so of course it's on your mind all day! Hopefully a year from now we'll both have the emotional/mental stuff down pat, and all we'll have on our mind is which fabulous new outfit to wear today!

[NJChick 3]

Its all about training the brain isn't it. Sorry I can't give you any advice

Just know I'm thinking about you **BUG HUG**

[kimalicious 5]

I still pout when I can't eat a full meal. As much as I know that is why I got the band in the first place, it doesn't help my brain any. This is a lifetime learning process. Take your time to heal and know that everyday is a new day!

Kim