I feel like I blew it....

[tnewton8351 0]

Since I got the band (8/26/09), I have been so proud of myself for making good food choices, eating slowly, chewing, drinking the Water, etc. etc. Following all the "rules" like a good lil bandster should.

Well today after church we went to Red Lobster for lunch. Ugh!! I don't know what happened but I ate one of the cheddar bay biscuits...I was just going to have a small bite and the next thing I knew I ate the whole thing! Then I had a little bit of salad...with a little bit of dressing on the side...that was good. Then I ate an entire POUND of Snow Crab Legs...WITH butter! :seeya:

I have felt so guilty ever since and really wanted to throw up so I would feel better. I mean I didn't have any pain or anything stuck. You know what I mean...feel better emotionally.

Why did I eat that much?? I wasn't starving. I just wanted it and didn't stop myself! I am so angry with myself or maybe more disappointed. :blushing:

I am so scared I am falling into back into bad habits. Overeating just like I did pre-band. So scared this is not going to work for me. Another failure just like all the other diets and crap I have tried.

T

[marmar 0]

Wow dont be so hard on yourself. You dont have any fills yet.

[kiz 1]

If we we made perfect food choices 100% of the time, we wouldn't need a band. You had a minor bump after a one month making huge changes in your life (plus your pre-op diet). I also think that adding some extra calories every once in a while shakes up our metabolism. Consider yours shook..lol

Honestly, you've been doing great, so forgive yourself the Red Lobster binge.

[onikenbai 33]

I'm convinced there's heroin in those biscuits. Nothing else could be that addictive.

[TxMomof4 0]

It will be ok, just pick yourself up, hop back on the bandwagon and dust yourself off. Tomorrow is another day!! You can do it, besides like someone else said, you probably dont have much restriction, have you even had a fill yet? Its just been a month. Be kinder to yourself, one of the reasons I gained weight was because I was so down on myself. Thus I would get depressed and eat more! Dont fall into that pit!!

D

[tnewton8351 0]

I have had one 4 cc fill. Thanks for your encouragement. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll be in a better frame of mind.

[blackonynx 27]

I feel your pain and understand. I did the same thing about an hour ago at dinner. I was doing oh so well and really never fell off the wagon that much untill to night. I made potato salad, sweet potato souffle, ham, and green Beans cooked in ham broth. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER, but I haven't cooked a nice meal for them in nearly 2 months. I was banded 7 weeks ago and they have been understanding and patient. Yes, I ate a little of everything and feel soooo guilty. I dont want to go back to old habits either, and I wont. I've only had one fill and still have no restriction. But as someone said, "Let's not beat ourselves up about it" Let's move on from here and prove only to ourselves that WE CAN DO THIS.</p>

Edited September 28, 2009 by blackonynx

[MLeigh 0]

I think everyone has got great words of encouragement. We can't be spot on 100% of the time, the important thing is that you are aware of the choice you made. The wonderful thing about that is tomorrow when you wake up you can knowingly make a different decision.

[YngGram 73]

At least it was food and it tasted good! I was stupid with of all things POPCORN! 6 months out, already pissed that I am stalled, playing with 4 lbs. and I do not 1 but 4 mini bags today. Don't know why, I was supposed to be liquids only today to get things moving in the right directions. Try it again tomorrow.

[Donnainva 0]

This isn't meant to be rude, just a wake up

Eating that much food with the band could very well screw something up. Is this a pound including the shell or 1lb of crab meat? if it's the latter, you ate approx 4 times what you should have eaten. Doing this can stretch the pouch and defeat everything you've been working towards

People here are telling you that you are only human and to do better tomorrow, and thats what I hope you get from all these posts, including mine.

You're not just overeating now, it can fuck you up if you do it with the band on.

Good luck dear, I mean that.

[ToomuchRN 0]

You are not a failure you are still human. It's okay to treat yourself every now and then but don't over do it. Consider this a treat. I had a ice cream cake for my birthday last night. I was aware of it. It was the 1st time I ate the wrong thing since surgery. But I'm not beating myself up about it. I just got up and went to a zumba class to work it off. Just like someone mentioned earlier tomorrow is another day and pick up from there. :seeya: P.S. I don't blame you for eating those biscuits they are sooooooo good I would have did the same thing.

[tnewton8351 0]

The pound of Snow Crab Legs at Red Lobster come in the shell. The pound includes the shell.

I looked up on redlobster.com to see what the nutritional value and calories are for what I ate. I was actually surprised. The pound of crab legs has 160 calories and 1 fat gram. Now the butter has 230 calories and 25 fat grams!! Thank God I didn't use the whole little cup!

The cheddar bay biscuit I ate had 150 calories and 8 fat grams.

I guess I could have done alot worse!! Still it was a lot more than I have been eating normally.

Again, thanks for the encouraging words. It helps to know I am not the only who has fell off the wagon. There's hope for me yet!

T.

[BooCakes 0]

Hang in there T. The fact you wrote this post shows you are scared and want to fight it. We all fight these urges or we would not have gotten banded. Like so many said, you can put the band in the tummy, but not in the head. So, try to focus on mentally prepping before you go to restaurants and what your meal will be and sticking to it. I have always struggled at restaurants and I am scared for my first trip to one now that I have my band (almost 2 weeks). So, hang in there...you are not gonna fail. One bad meal does not mean failure, just a bump. Chin up!

[fatmom 0]

You probably don't need any more boosters, but here I am.

You have worked very hard since surgery, that deserves ALOT of credit. It far outweighs your first mishap. It's all in the perspective.

The second thing you did right was tell someone, share it so it's not a secret you are hiding. Getting it off your chest and sharing it seems to me a good way to help you get back on the wagon.

I am only today 2 weeks post op and I have already screwed up. Saturday my dh was away all day and it was just me and my son who is back up and around but still has mono. He didn't eat much all day. There isn't much in the house for him to eat since the dh is trying to lose weight and eating similar to me right now. So I offered to go out and get my son whatever he wanted for dinner.

Well, he wanted a Wendy's triple! (He even told me later that was the first Wendy's hamburger he has ever eaten. He's always had the spicy chicken.) So there I am at the drive through ordering his #3 and what do I do? I added a LARGE chocolate shake -- for me!

Boy did I love every 90 minutes of it, but I know it was not what I should have done. No, I didn't ruin it by adding Protein powder which would have been a good idea.

Funny thing was my son who is usually very observant and stays on my case didn't say a word about it. I even hid the empty cup in the Wendy's bag in the trash so the dh wouldn't see it when he came home.

But then in bed that night I confessed. It was like the weight of the world was off my shoulders. I also knew having confessed I was less likely to continue that path.

I'm glad this place is here for all of us!:smile2:

[tnewton8351 0]

Thank you all! I feel much better today. I even got on the scales this morning figuring that might also get me motivated or punish me further I didn't know! I lost another pound would you believe? Shocking I know.

I do feel better today and started off the morning in the right direction. I'm back in the saddle again!

Take care and God Bless,

T