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[Suziecat 379]

Well, it didn't go as well as I was hoping it would go but we are one step closer. The Doc said he is hoping to get me into surgery next Thursday but he would really like to do a stress test first. The last one I had was 2 1/2 years ago and he said that was too far out. Since I can't do a treadmill they will do the chemical test. They promised me that they have new drugs and that it's not as intense as before. Didn't ease my mind any. I told the Doc that I would suffer through the pain and do the treadmill, I got that look that said, Uhmm. NO. Anyway this Tuesday I will go to have that done and he said to have them call him immediately with the results. He will look it over and give me the info right then. We will not know till tuesday afternoon if I'm on for the surgery.

I realise that my heart safety and my health is the most important thing and I am going to trust all of these Doctors and do as they say. But from my side this is very frustrating. I'm so ready to have this back surgery done and over with and to get on with my life. Here's where my patience or lack of it will get the best of me. I need to learn to let God and the Docs do what they need to do so that I can get back to my life. Argghhh.

Just very frustrating, did I say that already???

[TracyK 3]

DD does NOT have Whooping Cough! I was pretty sure she didn't but ya never know.

Suzanne, prayers for the day.

Tracy, glad DH is home to help for a couple of days.

YAY, I am so glad dd doesn't have whooping cough! By the way, YOU are the multipost queen...you do it alot better than me :wink5:

You know, I still have not gotten my dry erase board for the refridgerator. I really need it. I can even write down if I have taken my meds and what time. I am getting forgetful. :sad:

Well, it didn't go as well as I was hoping it would go but we are one step closer. The Doc said he is hoping to get me into surgery next Thursday but he would really like to do a stress test first. The last one I had was 2 1/2 years ago and he said that was too far out. Since I can't do a treadmill they will do the chemical test. They promised me that they have new drugs and that it's not as intense as before. Didn't ease my mind any. I told the Doc that I would suffer through the pain and do the treadmill, I got that look that said, Uhmm. NO. Anyway this Tuesday I will go to have that done and he said to have them call him immediately with the results. He will look it over and give me the info right then. We will not know till tuesday afternoon if I'm on for the surgery.

I realise that my heart safety and my health is the most important thing and I am going to trust all of these Doctors and do as they say. But from my side this is very frustrating. I'm so ready to have this back surgery done and over with and to get on with my life. Here's where my patience or lack of it will get the best of me. I need to learn to let God and the Docs do what they need to do so that I can get back to my life. Argghhh.

Just very frustrating, did I say that already???

We were just talking about stress tests too....strange huh?! I heard about the injection they have that puts you inot a stress mode and they tell that way. That is kinda scary...dont know if i would want the shot or the treadmill! I can't even begin to imagine how frustrated you must be. One day at a time, right?!

Hi everyone! I slept like a rock last night and woke up at 9. That is LATE for me! I am still eating properly, even though I have been tempted, i have held my ground. Cindy said it best when she said that we may not be able to control alot but we can control what we put into our mouths. (or at least i think Cindy said that...like i said, my mind isn't up to par these days :huh2: ) So, that is what I have been doing...focusing on my first step of regaining my life back. I am SO scared to get on the scales because I really REALLY want to be 24something again so I am gonna wait until i wake up one morning and FEEL lighter. I can not believe i am at square one again. But you know what is strange? I do not feel in my heart like i am at square one because I know what to do and I have the band. Sounds strange, huh?

I made an appt with my regular family physician to talk to him about the hospital ordeal. I read the actual definitions of anxiety and panic attacks....fit me to a T. Looks like a change in meds in on the horizon.

Cindy-how is summer school going? Thanks for the well wishes!

Angela-how is ds doing? I will call PM you about a coffee date. Do you work in LaPorte? If you work close I could even maybe meet you for lunch? :frown:

Terri-i was self pay too. I wish insurance would have paid but...no way! So, we paid it, and I have zero regrets.

Bethany-where are you?

Jenn-i will try to call you this weekend girlie! We miss you here though. Don't make me send out the flying monkies to get you! :tt2:

JOLLY, SHAYLEE yooooohhooooooo.

I called Kat and left her a message telling her I am alive I knew she would wanna know.

Have a great night everyone :Yawn:

By the way, if I missed someone, blame the drugs. :tongue:

Edited June 12, 2010 by TracyK

[crzytchr 3]

Tracy, this sounds smart and correct, we may not be able to control alot but we can control what we put into our mouths, but I don't think I said it. I wish I would've, though:tongue2:. My daughter, who has put on 15 lbs with the current boyfriend, did say even though he bought the food for her, he didn't make her eat it.

I am glad you are doing better.

Well, sometimes things happen that go beyond my realm of comprehension. Things that I just can't fathom. My kids found out today, and it was on the news, that a sophomore at their school, who is also the son of their math teacher, violently and randomly attacked an 8 yr old boy. I don't understand what could happen to bring about these actions. A mom with her two sons were riding bikes in a nice neighborhood on a paved bike trail in the woods. The 8 yr old fell behind without the mom noticing and this kid just jumps out and starts stabbing him. I don't understand. I teach kids all day long and I never look at them and see this kind of propensity for violence, and I have taught some violent kids and you have heard this year about it, but to attack an innocent child half your age unprovoked? I feel bad for the victim's family and I feel bad for the alleged attacker's mom (my kids' teacher). People will ask why she didn't see this. Didn't she notice the signs? I think sometimes there may not be any sign, but my heart aches for her and the pain she is going through. The victim's family will receive sympathy, but I am afraid she may receive mostly judgements. My heart is heavy and I just don't get it. Please keep these families in your prayers.

[TracyK 3]

Tracy, this sounds smart and correct, we may not be able to control alot but we can control what we put into our mouths, but I don't think I said it. I wish I would've, though:tongue2:. My daughter, who has put on 15 lbs with the current boyfriend, did say even though he bought the food for her, he didn't make her eat it.

Well, it must have been one of our other MANY wise women on here. Whoever said it is right on!

I am glad you are doing better. Well, my chest pains are gone but my heart still races even though my pulse feels normal. Very strange!

Well, sometimes things happen that go beyond my realm of comprehension. Things that I just can't fathom. My kids found out today, and it was on the news, that a sophomore at their school, who is also the son of their math teacher, violently and randomly attacked an 8 yr old boy. I don't understand what could happen to bring about these actions. A mom with her two sons were riding bikes in a nice neighborhood on a paved bike trail in the woods. The 8 yr old fell behind without the mom noticing and this kid just jumps out and starts stabbing him. I don't understand. I teach kids all day long and I never look at them and see this kind of propensity for violence, and I have taught some violent kids and you have heard this year about it, but to attack an innocent child half your age unprovoked? I feel bad for the victim's family and I feel bad for the alleged attacker's mom (my kids' teacher). People will ask why she didn't see this. Didn't she notice the signs? I think sometimes there may not be any sign, but my heart aches for her and the pain she is going through. The victim's family will receive sympathy, but I am afraid she may receive mostly judgements. My heart is heavy and I just don't get it. Please keep these families in your prayers. Oh my Lord :frown: That is one of the saddest things I have ever heard. I will definitely pray for both families. Absolutely heart wrenching.

(I guess I will go back and read through the pages and see who said we control what we eat...Michelle, was it you?)

[TracyK 3]

WTG Tracy! You are doing what you can do....controlling you. That is it. We can not control the actions of others, but we can control how we allow it to affect us. It took me a while to understand that. By taking care of yourself you are taking positive steps to feel better. Sooner or later you will learn why she left. Until then, don't fret about it. It just isn't worth it.

OK, so the wording was a little different, but that was my interpretation for what THIS said :frown:

I knew it was you Cindy, so I am not completely off my rocker!

[crzytchr 3]

OK, so the wording was a little different, but that was my interpretation for what THIS said :frown:

I knew it was you Cindy, so I am not completely off my rocker!

Well, I am glad it helped and that you aren't off your rocker!!!

Anxiety can wreck havoc on our bodies. Please take care of yourself.

[heartfire 4]

I realise that my heart safety and my health is the most important thing and I am going to trust all of these Doctors and do as they say. But from my side this is very frustrating. I'm so ready to have this back surgery done and over with and to get on with my life. Here's where my patience or lack of it will get the best of me. I need to learn to let God and the Docs do what they need to do so that I can get back to my life. Argghhh.

Just very frustrating, did I say that already???

I know you are frustrated, Suzanne. Please make note of your final paragraph. Keep telling yourself this. This is all happening for a reason. It must play out in a certain way. I do wish you could have your surgery sooner but you MUST make sure your heart is okay first. Just try to be patient. Lots of hugs and prayers.

YAY, I am so glad dd doesn't have whooping cough! By the way, YOU are the multipost queen...you do it alot better than me :huh2:

Thank you! :tongue: They take me forever b/c I'm so anal retentive!

You know, I still have not gotten my dry erase board for the refridgerator. I really need it. I can even write down if I have taken my meds and what time. I am getting forgetful. :wink5:

Mine is hanging up there all empty and pitiful. I'm eating horrible and I know it. I don't want to see it in writing right now.

Oh! Got my books the other day. I started "Breaking Free from Emotional Eating." Some stuff makes sense and some stuff doesn't.

We were just talking about stress tests too....strange huh?! I heard about the injection they have that puts you inot a stress mode and they tell that way. That is kinda scary...dont know if i would want the shot or the treadmill! I can't even begin to imagine how frustrated you must be. One day at a time, right?!

I'm thinking I'd want the treadmill too! Yikes!

Hi everyone! I slept like a rock last night and woke up at 9. That is LATE for me! I am still eating properly, even though I have been tempted, i have held my ground. Cindy said it best when she said that we may not be able to control alot but we can control what we put into our mouths. (or at least i think Cindy said that...like i said, my mind isn't up to par these days :huh2: ) So, that is what I have been doing...focusing on my first step of regaining my life back. I am SO scared to get on the scales because I really REALLY want to be 24something again so I am gonna wait until i wake up one morning and FEEL lighter. I can not believe i am at square one again. But you know what is strange? I do not feel in my heart like i am at square one because I know what to do and I have the band. Sounds strange, huh?

I made an appt with my regular family physician to talk to him about the hospital ordeal. I read the actual definitions of anxiety and panic attacks....fit me to a T. Looks like a change in meds in on the horizon.

Congrats on the sleep and the eating! Great idea to check in with your doc.

Jenn-i will try to call you this weekend girlie! We miss you here though. Don't make me send out the flying monkies to get you! :tt2:

Ditto! Hope she's doing well.

JOLLY, SHAYLEE yooooohhooooooo.

I called Kat and left her a message telling her I am alive I knew she would wanna know.

I'm glad you called her, she was worried. Well, we all were!

Have a great night everyone :tt2:

You too!

By the way, if I missed someone, blame the drugs. :Yawn:

Well, sometimes things happen that go beyond my realm of comprehension. Things that I just can't fathom. My kids found out today, and it was on the news, that a sophomore at their school, who is also the son of their math teacher, violently and randomly attacked an 8 yr old boy. I don't understand what could happen to bring about these actions. A mom with her two sons were riding bikes in a nice neighborhood on a paved bike trail in the woods. The 8 yr old fell behind without the mom noticing and this kid just jumps out and starts stabbing him. I don't understand. I teach kids all day long and I never look at them and see this kind of propensity for violence, and I have taught some violent kids and you have heard this year about it, but to attack an innocent child half your age unprovoked? I feel bad for the victim's family and I feel bad for the alleged attacker's mom (my kids' teacher). People will ask why she didn't see this. Didn't she notice the signs? I think sometimes there may not be any sign, but my heart aches for her and the pain she is going through. The victim's family will receive sympathy, but I am afraid she may receive mostly judgements. My heart is heavy and I just don't get it. Please keep these families in your prayers.[/size][/color][/color][/size]

That is HORRIBLE! How sad! I feel awful for BOTH families! Lots of prayers for them all.

(I guess I will go back and read through the pages and see who said we control what we eat...Michelle, was it you?)

Nope, I thought it was Cindy too. Sounds like something she would say!

OK, so the wording was a little different, but that was my interpretation for what THIS said :frown:

I knew it was you Cindy, so I am not completely off my rocker! :sad:

Heehee!

~~~~~

There is a very large grass fire in the flats below us. About an hour + away. Lots of equipment and personnel. It's grazing fields and it's windy so it's moving pretty good. DH hasn't been dispatched to it... yet.

Season is here!

Got DD all signed up for swim lessons today. I don't think I mentioned the drama here.

She usually goes to the high school for lessons and each year has gotten more expensive. First year was $50 for 2 week session = 10 lessons. Last year it was $80 for 2 week session = 8 lessons! This year they contracted it out and it's now $105 + $35 registration fee for 2 weeks = 10 lessons! I almost didn't do it last year at 80 bucks! I sure as hell wasn't doing it this year at 140!!!! Ticked me off!!!

Then I remembered that a private housing development (member only kinda thing) down the hill from us used to give lessons when I was a kid. Never took them but we lived there and summers, sis and I lived at the pool! Sooooo I got on their website and they ARE giving lessons! Non-members pay $65 for 2 week session = 10 lessons!!! WhooHoo! DD and I drove down today to sign her up. So she's all set and starts on Monday! I'm very happy!

I also have a job interview on Monday morning. On a whim I applied with Burger King. They are opening a new one in town and the operations manager for BK wants to hire adult, more stable workers. I'm surprised that he called me b/c on the online app it asked what days/hours you were available and b/c of childcare I can't work weekends or holidays and only certain hours during the day. If DH is gone, day care is my back up and they are only open certain hours. So, we'll see. I really have no stake in it so if I get it, great, if not, I'll keep looking. Things are tight right now but we're okay so it's not like I MUST have a job now. I know a lot of people are in that situation so I'm blessed in that respect. Tho I'm nervous with the State wanting to do more paycuts w/DH's paycheck. I'm stressing with that so I'm being proactive and looking for a job now vs. later.

Have a great night!

[AngelaW 0]

Good morning!

I hope Kat is enjoying her trip and left all her worries at home.

Suzie, I second what Michelle said. Take deep breaths and know that it will happen when it is suppose to. Gee...that sounds like advice I need too :frown:. It's much easier said than done, that's for sure!

Tracy, got your PM! So glad you are ok. I am equally glad that you are going to get a stress test. Better safe than sorry. It sounds like you needed all that rest!!

I wish life would slow down a little bit (maybe we can MAKE it!). I would love to go walking with you! We still need to try and make a coffee date.

Michelle, that grass fire sounds scary. I am glad we don't see too much of that here.

Good luck with your job interview!

Cindy, that story just breaks my heart. I can't make stuff like that make sense in my head. Sad all the way around. How are you and how is summer school coming? It is only 16 days long here. How long is it there?

Well you guys, I am at work today. I hate giving up my Saturdays but I like the money. I keep telling myself that the more I work now the sooner I can retire. The part I can't seem to get right is SAVING the extra money I earn, lol! Oh, well.

Mike's weekend work is finally slowing down, thank you God! He is deep-sea fishing today. I hope he is having fun! He usually hooks up with a group of guys from work about twice a year and they charter a boat out of Freeport, Tx. I have gone before but I usually get "green" really fast on those small boats. They go way out...and today Mike said it was suppose to be 5 ft. seas. Forget about it!!! Those turds he works with always have a pot going to see who gets sick first. Pick me!!! There is nothing lady-like about loosing your Breakfast over the side of a boat!

I am hoping to get out of here by noon. If I do I think Zach and I will catch lunch somewhere (See? Should be saving instead!!) and then go rent some movies and relax.

I hope you guys all have a great weekend!

Angela

Edited June 12, 2010 by AngelaW

[Jennifur 0]

Hola gals

I am just quickly checking in, I missed so much with you all, and I miss you all so much

My laptop is crapola and takes forever to open up so I just don't really bother much anymore, I just don't have the energy to deal with it.

I am still dating George, it has been since 4/23! He spent the night here Thursday and I spent the night with him last night. It was cold week so kinda blah, but as nice last night so we went riding on his harley and to dinner and long ride back. I am not going to the bar and am in bed by 9 every night.

Amazing, I think i'm finally learning what life is about, I'm content and have someone who holds doors, and cooks and likes to enjoy life. Last night at dinner it was like I was sitting with me, he wanted a booth and had to face the door, I lost, had to sit with my back to the door and didn't even care because was with good company.

Anyway him and work and kids consume me but I'm doing well.

Another happy note, I was back up to 190 when started work down to 173 today and.... am now buying a size 10 and got my first pr of jr shorts, size 13 but hell yea i'll take that!

Kev cam back so I've been kind of emotional dealing with that, but you know what... I love him, but I have too much hate or anger towards him to forgive him

miss you all i'll try to check in more

xoxoxo

[TracyK 3]

Well, I am glad it helped and that you aren't off your rocker!!!

Anxiety can wreck havoc on our bodies. Please take care of yourself.

I am trying to. It will be interesting to see what my dr says Tuesday. You know what...we will probably be passing through your area sometime this summer and If we do, would love to meet up with you for lunch or something!

I also have a job interview on Monday morning. On a whim I applied with Burger King. They are opening a new one in town and the operations manager for BK wants to hire adult, more stable workers. I'm surprised that he called me b/c on the online app it asked what days/hours you were available and b/c of childcare I can't work weekends or holidays and only certain hours during the day. If DH is gone, day care is my back up and they are only open certain hours. So, we'll see. I really have no stake in it so if I get it, great, if not, I'll keep looking. Things are tight right now but we're okay so it's not like I MUST have a job now. I know a lot of people are in that situation so I'm blessed in that respect. Tho I'm nervous with the State wanting to do more paycuts w/DH's paycheck. I'm stressing with that so I'm being proactive and looking for a job now vs. later. Ya know, I think that all that is going on with me, that is one of my stress/anxiety problems. Feeling like I have to go to work and that time may be running out. And in reality, I dont think it is. I just wanna fix everything right now and I can't. Good luck with the BK thing. Must be looking for someone mature to run the place for you to be able to tell him what hours you want and they agree. Sounds GREAT! :thumbup:

Have a great night!

Tracy, got your PM! So glad you are ok. I am equally glad that you are going to get a stress test. Better safe than sorry. It sounds like you needed all that rest!! Thank you! I will never go to Bayshore Hospital again! Have you ever been there? Needing the rest was an understatement.

I wish life would slow down a little bit (maybe we can MAKE it!). I would love to go walking with you! We still need to try and make a coffee date. anytime in the evening would be good for walking, when it is cooler. It is SO hot I feel like I am melting! Cold coffee however sounds GREAT! (or both?)

Well you guys, I am at work today. I hate giving up my Saturdays but I like the money. I keep telling myself that the more I work now the sooner I can retire. The part I can't seem to get right is SAVING the extra money I earn, lol! Oh, well. Let me know if wherever you work is hiring :biggrin:

Mike's weekend work is finally slowing down, thank you God! He is deep-sea fishing today. I hope he is having fun! He usually hooks up with a group of guys from work about twice a year and they charter a boat out of Freeport, Tx. OMG, what FUN!! I love to saltwater fish. That was my best memories growing up...fishing with my father!

I am hoping to get out of here by noon. If I do I think Zach and I will catch lunch somewhere (See? Should be saving instead!!) and then go rent some movies and relax.

I watched Its Complicated...cute cute cute.

I hope you guys all have a great weekend!

Angela

Hola gals

I am just quickly checking in, I missed so much with you all, and I miss you all so much ahhh, just seeing your post on here makes me wanna shed tears of joy :wink4:

My laptop is crapola and takes forever to open up so I just don't really bother much anymore, I just don't have the energy to deal with it. Now that is wore out!

I am still dating George, it has been since 4/23! He spent the night here Thursday and I spent the night with him last night. It was cold week so kinda blah, but as nice last night so we went riding on his harley and to dinner and long ride back. I am not going to the bar and am in bed by 9 every night. You are prolly losing weight because you aren't doing the bar scene! Liquor is fattening!

Amazing, I think i'm finally learning what life is about, I'm content and have someone who holds doors, and cooks and likes to enjoy life. Last night at dinner it was like I was sitting with me, he wanted a booth and had to face the door, I lost, had to sit with my back to the door and didn't even care because was with good company. LOL

Anyway him and work and kids consume me but I'm doing well.

Another happy note, I was back up to 190 when started work down to 173 today and.... am now buying a size 10 and got my first pr of jr shorts, size 13 but hell yea i'll take that!

OMG, that was my lowest weight I got to. I was 4 pounds away from goal... :eek: you would not believe what i look like now compared to when we went to Gruene. Ugh, I can not think about it!

Kev cam back so I've been kind of emotional dealing with that, but you know what... I love him, but I have too much hate or anger towards him to forgive him You are doing just fine to let your mind even go there...good job!

miss you all i'll try to check in more LOVE YA SIS! MUAH!

xoxoxo

My goodness ladies...I have only went down -2 this past week. I was hoping for more but...i can tell I am retaining Fluid. I did not listen to my mind when I told myself not to weigh unless I *felt* lighter. Oh well, onward & upwards!

Have a fantastic Saturday night everyone! :wub:

[crzytchr 3]

Tracy, meeting up for lunch would be awesome! Where are y'all thinking about going?

[Kat817 19]

Hey girls, no time to read thru everything, just popped on Aunties computer to buy Seaworld tickets! We leave out for SA in the morning---yay!!!

This has been fun tho, I am enjoying myself. Knee is scabby and sore, but ankle is better (gotta love DMSO!!!)

Anyway---read enough to see Tracy is well---YAY!!!!

Will check in in a few days---gotta go call my Mommy today is her birthday!

Take care all!!

[heartfire 4]

Angela, hope you had a nice afternoon with Zach.

Jenn, so glad you checked in! Sounds like you're doing well.

Tracy, don't worry about the scale right now. You need to rest and get better.

Kat, sounds like you're healing and having a good time! Thanks for checking in.

~~~~~

Talked to DH earlier today and he was sent to a fire only to have the engine break down this AM after they got there. Haven't talked to him since so I have NO idea what's happening! I do know he ain't gonna be home in the AM! In fact, I doubt he'll be home tomorrow at all! We'll see. I hope he can come home but I'm going to make plans for a sitter Monday AM while I'm at my interview.

DD and I always miss him when he's gone. DD is old enough now to "get it" too. Makes it hard sometimes. When she's acting up I have to be firm but also realize that she's missing her papa too. Fine line to walk!

Not much else is going on.

Hope y'all have a great Sunday!

[Suziecat 379]

Morning Girls. Woke up and was alreday making my list of things to do today even before I got out of bed. If I get everything accomplished I should make it to bed about 3am. So it looks like I'm gonna have to cut my list down.

It stormed most of the day here yesterday. The sun came out about 5pm and it turned out beautiful. Now they are calling for storms again today. Looks like no pool time for anyone.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

[Jennifur 0]

Hey hey all

screwing around this am and wanted to say hi

going to get new boots and some cheap jeans for work, destroying all my clothes