Ugggh need advice

[LeslieR041906 1]

I had to have my fill taken out because I had 4 bad infections going on and I was vomiting, and I couldnt get anything down. In my 14cc band all I had was 2.3ccs in my band and it still made things get stuck. Well, this was last friday about a week ago. Since then I have watched what I ate, and have gained 12lbs. Im so mad, so depressed, etc. I go see my doc today. And I just dont know what to do. For a while, my band was tight. My calories per day is about 300 to 600. I drink shakes, and when I do eat I vomit it back up. It was almost like I had bulemia or however you spell it. Well, I am addicted to doing that. I was dropping weight like flies. Perhaps I had a problem. So, now Im eating, and gaining, and I am so depressed. I cant tell my doc what I was doing because he would loosen my adjustment. I barely had anything in there to begin with. Anyway, I just need some advice. I dont exercise because I have back and disc problems. Apparently being obese for so long did a number on my back. I also have fibromyalgia. But, I know its a serious issue to vomit and I know that I shouldnt enjoy that. But it feel wonderful to lose 100lbs in a year. This is the first time I gained. Im scared. What if I reach my goal, and they take the fill out, and I gain again? What is the point? To be honest I want the sleeve. That is all I am thinking about. But my doc says, sleeve is permanent and the band isnt. Just sad and depressed. :rolleyes2:

[Foxxy 0]

I can understand your frustrations. IMO, though, I think that you may need to seek some counseling. You're doing yourself alot of damage by not only vomiting (stomach inversion, slippage, etc.) but it really sounds like a bigger problem mentally (no offense). Don't be afraid to get help.