Doubts? Nerves

[healthy-me-in-Az 0]

Is anyone having second thoughts? I don't know I would call it second thoughts.. but surgery is coming closer and I think I am just getting scared. I am thinking... do I really want to do this? What if? What if? What if? And that is just my nature... I am a ridiculously overly cautious person.

I know I want to do this. I know I want to lose weight. I can't keep doing what I am doing. It took me a couple years to even make this decision so I know I have thought it out. And the fact is, if I decided not to do it, that would be the end. It would admitting I would be fat forever. I would seriously take years off my life AND compromise my quality of life with diabetes, heart disease etc.

I think I am just struggling with my self-imposed pre-op diet and feeling sorry for myself. I know that will pass. Plus, when you get right down to it... I am a big chicken. LOL So I know it is just that. I don't do a lot of things I want to do because I am scared and this isn't going to be one of them!!!!

Anyone else really doing some soul searching right now?

[daqui26 4]

lisa who let you into my head????

your words are my thought exactly. i have been what if-ing myself since i got my surgery date. don't get me wrong im happy i finally got it but i cant seem to stop the what ifs. i have noticed that s the days tick away im getting more at ease. like you it took me a few years to even decide to do this so i know its the right thing. not only that i've tried the other ways, i just could not get control of my eating habits. we are all taking chances with having surgery but we all take chances daily by being overweight.

im sure the majority of us are a little nervous and thats ok.

[ocotillo 0]

I'm starting to get nervous too! I'm in AZ also and going south of the border to have this done. I'm not so worried about that, but as I read more and more about the problems with this surgery, I wonder what side effects I'm going to experience. I was reading about acid reflux and that is sort of scary. I don't have too much problem with that now...will it get worse? Or can I actually change enough of my bad habits to really make this work? Or OMG, I've never been normal sized....can I actually deal with that? I've always been big and I'm not sure I have the tools to deal with normalness. Also, what kind of hell will I put my husband through as I go through this journey. I am spending a great deal of money to fix me. I'm the only one that can.

It's great to have a forum so we can express ourselves. I'm sure my sisters and husband don't want to hear about this any more.

[healthy-me-in-Az 0]

Thank you for the reassurance! I just wanted to feel normal about my feelings! I wanted to feel like just because I was nervous didn't mean this isn't going to work for me, like I am not committed to it.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

I feel better! Hmm.. I like being 'normal'... go figure! :thumbup:

[Juniper 0]

i used to question myself every day whether i really wanted to do this or not.

but i made myself stop dwelling on it, and just accepted it as fact that i would be doing it.

i did tons of research, thought about it for a long, long time, and while i'm still scared of actually going under anesthesia again, i'm not scared of having the band put in.

it's going to be the tool i need, the control i never had by myself. and it's going to help me live a longer and happier, healthier life.

i do worry that i won't do things perfectly. that i'll eat things that slide right through, and that i won't lose weight as fast as i could if i did everything perfectly. but i'm no longer afraid of failing. maybe it's because i have SO much weight to lose, that i know that even if i only lost HALF, hell, even a THIRD of my goal, i'll be so much better off!

and it will all be worth it.

:thumbup:

[KayVee 0]

I started looking into this almost a year ago, so the time for what if's has passed for me. I just can't wait to be banded and get on with the weight losing! I'm so glad there are so many here to help us on the way. I read blogs and have made friends that I'm sure I'll stay in touch with for years to come. I hear it so often, what took me so long to come to this decision or it was the best decision I ever made, wish I'd done it years ago. That will be me one day when I'm healthy and even more fabulous! Go Freedom Fighters... July 20 here! Can't wait.

[thatswhatdefinesme 0]

Lisa,

I think that you may be in my head too. I can't wait for July 7th! I'm so ready to have surgery, but I'm a bit nervous about the surgery itself. All in all I know this the right decision for me, even if I'm a little scared.

Erica

[Who'sThere 331]

Okay, since we are all admitting our fears, here is mine. The last time I REALLY tried to lose weight I was very successful. I lost 100 pounds in about 7.5 months. The problem is I lost the weight too fast (of course I gained it back just as fast). I had SERIOUS trouble with low blood pressure, and at one point, I actually almost died. I was in the ambulance and my husband was pleading with the EMTs to take me to a different hospital than the local one because I had been there quite often and they treated my symptoms and sent me home. They never got to the cause of the problem, and I kept having to come back. (I was passing out from seriously low BP.) I heard them tell him I wouldn't live long enough to make it to the other hospital which was about 30 miles away.

Everyone envolved knows about this history and I think it will be monitored carefully and taken care of. I am just afraid psychologically that I will psych myself out of doing as well as I can because I may be subconsciously still afraid of losing weight and getting so sick again. I don't think this will cause me to self sabatoge, but I can't be certain. I KNOW I have to do this or the consequences could be just as bad. I am so very close to being diabetic, and I know if I don't get this under control once and for all, things could be even worse.

I'm also glad we have a place like this to vent. I can't talk about this to my husband. He is really supportive, but he HATES any kind of surgery, so he says that he won't relax until I'm awake after my surgery. If I throw this at him, he will have even more to worry about!

[leshers2x2 1]

I think the doubts and worries are normal. At least I am hoping. My biggest fear is that this will be yet another failed attempt to lose this weight. I am so glad I found this place because it is hard to talk to other people who haven't gone through this.

[mcb2009 0]

Hi Lisa,

I am feeling the exact same way. My surgery is scheduled for Monday July 6th and so is only one week away. I'm sick of the pre-op diet, which I've been on for nearly 2 weeks already. I'm tried, drained, short-tempered and questionning my decision to have this done. But...like you said, I think I'm more afraid of what I'd do if I decided not to get it. I've been yo-yo dieting for most of my adult life and quite frankly I'm just sick of it. I'm very afraid that I'll do what I've always done and once I've lost weight I'll just begin to gain again. The band isn't the magic bullet.

Ahhh...and I'm really not looking forward to the post-op shoulder pain. I had my gall bladder out a few years ago and thought I'd be up and about in a couple of days. Alas...the shoulder pain was bad (for me anyway) and it was tough going for a week. The second week post-op I was fine and back to work, but that first week was bad. Oh well, its only a week.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you are definitely not alone. I'm right with ya!

Cheers,

Mary

[bobbiezhere 0]

Is anyone having second thoughts? I don't know I would call it second thoughts.. but surgery is coming closer and I think I am just getting scared. I am thinking... do I really want to do this? What if? What if? What if? And that is just my nature... I am a ridiculously overly cautious person.

I think I am just struggling with my self-imposed pre-op diet and feeling sorry for myself. I know that will pass. Plus, when you get right down to it... I am a big chicken. LOL So I know it is just that. I don't do a lot of things I want to do because I am scared and this isn't going to be one of them!!!!

Anyone else really doing some soul searching right now?

At a week out, yes, i have had some moments of doubt....and i was very very sure i wanted to do this. I still am....but it does scare me a little. Then, i read on this site all those people that post this is the best thing they've ever done..how happy they are with this etc...and i realize that i could be saying that verysoon too.

For myself, i was contiuing to gain and gain and gain. My blood sugar was becoming uncontrollable..and bottom line, i have two daughters (7 and 13) that i need to be here for -- a healthier me. I wish so badly i could have done this on my own with no intervention. I have lost so much before on diets, only to gain again.

This will be the one that ends that yo yo cycling that puts so much stress on our hearts.

So, i do understand your hesitation...very much so. So from one chicken to the other...we'll all do this together! Look forward to sharing/exchanging success stories very soon!

[bobbiezhere 0]

I think the doubts and worries are normal. At least I am hoping. My biggest fear is that this will be yet another failed attempt to lose this weight. I am so glad I found this place because it is hard to talk to other people who haven't gone through this.

This will NOT be a failed attempt for you - you WILL succeed...you will. Just keep the faith! Any time you want to talk....we're here!

[barregirl 0]

Heck yes I am nervous. My surgery is scheduled for July 14. I am worried that I'll cheat and all this effort will be for nothing. I'm 4 days into pre-op diet and today was the hardest yet. I'm allowed 1 starch, 1 veggie and 1 fruit each day along with my Protein shakes. When I had my starch (baked potato) for supper tonight, I had 2. I was so freaking hungry all day I couldn't stand it! And then I beat myself up for an hour because of it.

I'm not nervous about the surgery itself, or the pain, but of failing. Need some positive thoughts!!!!!

Edited July 3, 2009 by barregirl

[ocotillo 0]

So all the pre op fears were groundless. The clinic, operation and everything went smoothly and I didn't feel too bad...well maybe like someone stabbed and beat me, but besides that, everything was okay.

Today I'm a little groggier and don't exactly feel like running a marathon. I just started working on my first 1/2 cup of broth. Takes good and feels good going down.

Now, for the control to no nibble and do any of the thinks I'm not supposed to.

Don't forget to hydrate ladies and gents. It's important.

EE

[Juniper 0]

So all the pre op fears were groundless. The clinic, operation and everything went smoothly and I didn't feel too bad...well maybe like someone stabbed and beat me, but besides that, everything was okay.

Today I'm a little groggier and don't exactly feel like running a marathon. I just started working on my first 1/2 cup of broth. Takes good and feels good going down.

Now, for the control to no nibble and do any of the thinks I'm not supposed to.

Don't forget to hydrate ladies and gents. It's important.

EE

ocotillo,

glad to hear you are doing well!!

you can resist those nibble urges!!