Mourning the loss of a friend

[june09bandit 0]

Now that I'm finished grieving for the time being, I thought it may be a good time to post.

About a week post-op, I went through a serious mourning period, with all the doubts and questions. I finally realized that pre-band, food was my best friend. With the band, I just can't have that relationship anymore (which, after all, is the whole point of the band). For some reason, I didn't realize how much it was going to impact me post op. What did I do? Why did I make it so that I can't enjoy my main source of pleasure anymore?

About 24 hours later, I had to lay it all out for myself again. I did it because food was destroying me. My weight made my injured knee useless. I could barely walk. I hated the way I look, so I was always depressed.

I did this so that I can feel good again, so that I can take long walks again.. so that I can be HAPPY again.

It will be worth it, I just have to tell my old friend goodbye, especially since it was destroying me one mouthful at a time.:wink:

[headin_to_mxico 0]

Amen! I think we all feel you on that one. I am not banded yet and I already feel that way. Im sure Im going to go totally nutzo after I get it and have a time where I totally regret it. But even though youre sad now, you know you will be happier than ever when your tool starts working for you. Nothing tasts as good as thin feels!

[justmel1957 1]

I didn't really go thru that, but I do think most of us do.......to me it has been a very xciting time. Now that Ive lost the weight I have replaced the food with other fun things I would have never done.

Mourning food, is completely normal..........but allow yourself to move on. Real life is just around the corner my friend.

And you know what..........for me, there are very few foods I miss......and if I want them, I eat them, but just a bite or 2......it works for me. It's all about Portion Control, exercise and staying healthy. Not deprivation.

Good luck!

[june09bandit 0]

Thanks for the words of advice Mely. Hopefully I'll feel better after I'm off mushies. For now, it IS a time of necessary deprivation. One more week....

[Brockbabe82 0]

After my surgery I went through a bit of a mourning period. I was mourning the loss of food because food was my friend. Food helped me feel better when I was lonely and it gave me something to look forward to, something to do with my time.

Now, I don’t obsess over food. I don’t count the hours until my next meal, or think of what I can eat. Instead, I think about what is going to give me the energy I need to live a fuller life. I used to live to eat, now I eat to live, way big difference. I think to idenitfy this is such a big advacement in the right direction. I can only hope with more time and focus, I succeed in my obesity being a thing of the past. Congrats to you and good luck on your journey.

Edited June 18, 2009 by Brockbabe82
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