feel like a failure

[mimmosa 0]

I started my pre-op liquid diet on Memorial Day and did well until today. I fought every urge to cheat and eat real food but some how I made it through the moment. That was until a few hours ago. I had a momement of weakness and went to Wendy's and got a kids meal and ate the whole thing. I am even more disappointed in myself because I knew that I was already at an increased risk for surgery problems because my liver is 3 times the normal size of someone my age and weight. I feel so helpless and I'm worried I am going to have trouble staying on the diet now because I couldn't make it 10 simple days on liquids only. Anyone go through a similiar momemt of weakness? I am prepared for harsh responses, heck I probably really need to hear them so that I don't fail like this again.

[malissa 0]

If your liver is already enlarged - maybe let your doctor know about the Wendys. I can't imagine just ONE meal would make all that much difference, but you never know. If your doctor chooses to reschedule, so be it.

Keep your chin up! You can do it!!

[RestlessMonkey 7]

I agree, tell your doc. I "cheated" on my preop diet, lost 15 pounds (so surgeon thought I'd done as he asked) and did not get my band because of my liver. My doc was upset because it never happened to him before. He told me "I tried and tried but I was afraid i was going to nick your liver. I am SO SORRY" Until I admitted to him what i had done. Bless him he wasn't happy but he knows we're human. I promised I would do EXACTLY as he said and he said "then I'll band you any day you ask (he usually only bands 1 day a week) 17 days and 17 MORE POUNDS (I did as he told me and weight dropped off) and I got the band.

Moral? Wish I'd done what I was supposed to the first time. It would've been easier on me and my pocketbook. I should've told my doctor what I did and let HIM make the call.

It's possible 1 wendy kids meal won't hurt you if you get right back on the wagon. In fact, it's actually pretty likely! But tell your surgeon. Let him either soothe your fears or put your surgery off for a bit. It seems awful I know but believe me, coming to in recovery without the band because your liver was too big is WORSE.

[Lolagirlie 0]

It was a few minutes in a day..that does not define you as a person or certainly not your success as a person. When the moments are hard you need to hang on, ride the wave, and they will pass. Be good to yourself..make the commitment now so you can work on the good habits you will need after the surgery. You have made one of the best decisions of your lifetime. Enjoy it..give it what it deserves...EVERYTHING YOU GOT. Good Luck and let me know how you are doing:smile: