Daisydoodle returns...

[daisydoodle 0]

This is the longest I've ever stayed away from the board since banding. I guess I've come back now because I need the support that I've received in the past now more than ever.

I was trucking along with my little band pregnancy and everything was going great. We even had an ultrasound and saw the heartbeat. That was awesome. I had maintained my weight so far and had every reason to be so estatic about this whole experience.

This past Monday morning I woke up cramping and bleeding. I went to the ER and found out that I was miscarrying. I was at 10 weeks. I'm devastated. Even though I know this is God's way of taking care of things that probably weren't right, I am having a terrible time dealing with this. I feel such a loss. I want our baby back. I loved feeling pregnant. I feel like someone took something away that belonged to me. My husband has been wonderful. He's been very comforting and loving and has even let me use him as a punching bag a time or two.

I try to stay positive and think to the future and that we'll get another chance. But every ounce of me is greiving for this child that I had already fallen in love with inside of me.

Sorry to be such a downer...

[the best me 6]

Aw Nicole, I'm sitting here crying for you now. I'm so so sorry.

Please know that lots and lots of women miscarry their first pregnancy. I know that doesn't make this any easier for you, and it isn't meant to comfort you, so much as it's meant to give you hope for your next pregnancy.

You will never forget that little life that was inside you, gone so young, yet so real and ever meaningful in just 10 little weeks. What a powerful tiny one, to have meant so much. Grieve, and know that it will be better in time. For right now, though, I'm really really sorry. {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}

[banded_for_life 2]

Hi Nicole, I am truly sorry for your loss and I will keep you in my prayers.

[dylansmom 27]

Oh Nicole I am so sorry for you. I have been through 4 miscarriages myself and I know exactly how you feel inside right now.

Please allow yourself to grieve through this and to give yourself the time to heal emotionally and physically.

I am here if you ever need me. If you'd like someone to talk to please feel free to PM me anytime. I'll also PM you my home phone number too, and you can call me ANYTIME.

I very much suggest the book called, "Grieving The Child I Never Knew" by Kathy Wunnerberg. It helped me get through the process of grieving, and it helped give me the hope that I so desperately needed.

I'm here if you need me. Much love to you and your husband.

~Kelly

[mousecrazy 2]

I'm so sorry. I think the loss is as great as a child that has been born. Your dreams and hopes for your child are real, and you will have to grieve the loss of those hopes and dreams. Yet, there are limitless hopes and dreams to be had, and there will be more. (((((Squeeze)))))). There, there, I'm so sorry.

[Iluvharleys 15]

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know you are going through a difficult time right now.

[Penni60 45]

Aw Nicole I am hurting for you. I never had to face a miscarriage with all my pregnancies. If I had I would have been devastated much like you are now. I won't lie and say it will get better but know that in time you will come to accept what has happened and move on. Some part of you will always want that baby back it is normal to feel that way. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

[Marimaru 7]

Nicole, I'm so sorry you've had to go through this. I hope that with time things start to feel better.

[NJChick 3]

Nicole, I'm sending you some big hugs and kisses. I've had 2 miscarriages and I find comfort in knowing that they are playing with my Lord & Savior, Jesus. I was in my 20's with the first and in my 30's with the second. After the one in my 30's we tried 3 months later like the doctor said to do and bam !!! I got pregnant again.

Hang in there sweetheart, there is always Hope and I'm sure great things will come to you.

Eileen

[Margo 0]

Nicole...

I am sending my condolences and my prayers....your baby is sitting in the palm of God's hand.

[Aimze 0]

Nicole,

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how Horrible this must be for you.

Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband during this very hard time..

Amy

[paula 4]

(((hugs)))

awe Nicole, I wish there was something I could say or do to make this better. Like Penni and many others, I have never had to experience this sorrow.

I hope you find the slightest bit of consolation in knowing you have a perfectly beautiful soul sitting at our Father's right hand recommending you and hubby to His grace and mercy.

From my heart, I pray for you...

[Jammin & Losin 1]

Nicole~ I really hope that time will heal some of your pain! You and your husband will be in my thoughts and prayers (((((HUGS))))

[TrishS 3]

Nicole... Im in tears... Im so sorry for your loss. I dont even know what to say... Just know that im praying for you and your husband! Take Care Sweetie!!!!!!!!!!

[Alexandra 55]

Nicole, I'm so so sorry for your loss. Pregnancy is such an amazing time and to have it end like this is so hard. Peace to you and your family.