Friday Weigh Ins

[myturn2bhappy 0]

I've failed the band. But I am here to atone and move on.. or should I say move down? I've only had 1 fill and have completely gone off track and broken every rule out there. It's been a crazy 6 months between deaths, financial issues and work casios. None of it is worthy of blame, I own that. But I will not let my life continue to slide out of control. Rock bottom here I am, now the only way to go is up!

[Band_Groupie 3]

Good job Heather! We're here to support you, and it's never to late for any of us to get back on the band wagon again!

[JayTee562 1]

No change for me this week.......ugh...

Guess I should be ok with that since treats have been around and I bought a box (small box) of bourbon balls last weekend that I've munched on a bit (1 or 2 a day).

Busy week coming materials for new flooring arrived yesterday cleaning out the living room and kitchen to get ready for installation on Monday.

[Band_Groupie 3]

Up .5# this week (and I've been putting off making the cookies...bourbon balls are my fav). Oooo JT...new floors for xmas, yay!

[jerseygirl518 3]

Good Morning. 234.5 today.

Huge family gathering on Thursday night, so I'll probably do my Friday Weigh In on Thursday next week. (or skip it altogether)

[myturn2bhappy 0]

283.00 which is -2 lbs this week. I made an appointment with my Doc for 1/12. I've only had one fill. I'm sure I'm going to be in for a major lecture.

Some other things I've done to get back on track:

1. Made appointment with Therapist. Need to get to the root of why I always set myself up to fail. Why don't I ever finish what I start? Why do I let stress = eating? Why, why, why?! Thought I was in a better place before being banned, I guess I was just fooling myself because I wasn't dealing with major stress at that point. Clearly I have to change in more ways.

2. Signed up with a friend to do a Biggest Loser like competition at our health club. We will be teamed up with two strangers. 12 week program starting 1/12 (same day as my Doc visit). They measure you & give health/exercise assesment the first week. Weekly weigh ins recorded and sent to all participants. Well they send % of weight loss, they do not share your weight.

3. Ordered new jeans in a size smaller. I will get in those soon!!

[jerseygirl518 3]

Heather, the "track" is looking good. All the best to you.

Please keep in touch and let us know if we can help with anything.

Judy

[riley4183 0]

Friday came & went & I forgot to log! 163.8 - yep thats a nice loss, I had my 6th and maybe final fill on Wednesday and my surgeon requires 48 hours of Clear liquids after - so yeah, I lost. And I have great restriction now, with only a .25cc fill! Yay.

Heather, you are doing exactly the right thing setting up an appointment with someone who can help you with the eating patterns. It is my #1 issue. I have the food intake part down and the exercise part down, but no one did surgery on this brain that has spend 47 years establishing certain nueral pathways that I now have to re-wire. It is hard, hard work!

I take a 4-week series of classes in Overcoming Emotional Eating every 2 months, and it has been SOOO helpful. Also David Kessler's book The end of overeating (or something like that) and the Beck Diet Solution - the book and the workbook. It's all about the head hunger, and it doesn't just go away because you can't eat as much anymore. The very best thing that I have done for my head hunger is to keep a detailed log of everthing I eat, my hunger at the time I ate it (on a scale of 1-5) and what my emotions were at the time - especially for snacking. I bought a journal in a health food store that has spaces to log stuff like that. When I log, drink my Water, and get to the gym, I lose. When I stop, I don't lose - but I don't gain too much either.

Good luck!

[JayTee562 1]

I weighed in at 230 this week. Guess that's pretty good since I've indulged a bit in holiday treats.

[Band_Groupie 3]

Down a pound this week...just .5 and I'll be at 75# (my next goal). I can't even believe I lost weight over Christmas...I ate snacks/appetizers, drank lots of alcohol and ate a little of everything, including a few Cookies. I'm starting to feel 'normal' when it comes to food LOL! I love my band!

[riley4183 0]

I was 165, so up a tad but I think the dreaded "carb bloat" accounts for it! Groupie I am with you, I can eat a little of anything and be perfectly happy - I feel "normal" about/around food for the first time in my life! Loving, loving, loving my band :biggrin: BUT . . . still SO much head work to do!

I had to deal with some super-intense emotions this week for the first time since being banded, and it was really hard because 1) I knew I could not "stuff" my feelings with food - it would all have come right back up thank you band!; and 2) I needed to avoid drowning my feelings with alcohol - the stats on bariatric surgery patients developing a replacement addiction with alcohol are staggering - like 35% - so I am hyper aware of that one (not that I don't drink, mind you; I only wish to avoid "needing" to drink). SO how do I deal with these feelings? I went for a run; I went to the gym and pumped iron; I went to church . . all of which helped, but the bottom line is that I can't avoid/stuff/medicate intense feelings anymore. I have to actually feel them, and they are uncomfortable . . . . it's hard, people! By far the hardest thing about this journey.

Good luck to all in this new year!!

[Band_Groupie 3]

172.5 Another one pound week...I'll take it with a smile! Happy New Year!

[riley4183 0]

Oh, I don't want to do this . . . 168! Yikes, I am going WAY the wrong way! Like almost 5 lbs in 2 weeks! I continue to work out 4-5 times a week and I have not eaten enough cals for that to be real, but still . . I don't like to see the scale moving the wrong way!

Even so, my clothes keep getting looser - I can't believe I am still losing inches! All of the 10s I tried on today were too big, I tried a pair of 8s and could easily zip them up . . too tight (for me) to wear out in public yet, but they are pretty darned close - so I'm between an 8 and a 10, and 8 is my goal size. So close size-wise!'

Happy New Year everyone!!!

[myturn2bhappy 0]

Riley- thank you for the book suggestions, I'm waiting for them to arrive any day. I read Look Great, Feel Great last week. I need to keep myself aware and honest about what I'm doing.

I'm starting the 5 day pouch test tomorrow. I have to stock up on liquids tonight.

I'm so nervous about going back to my Doc on the 12th. I know that I have to face the music, that I've failed my band. I hate getting in trouble or letting others down. Clearly I don't have a problem letting down myself :blushing::thumbup:. Work in progress... I will be the fit healthy person I want to be. I am that person, just have some extra baggage right now.

[jerseygirl518 3]

Happy New Year Everyone. I've been trying to post since 1/1/10. The darned site wouldn't let me in.

I weighed in at 232 on Friday.