need a kick in the butt

[want_so_bad 0]

i would really appreciate some help. i havent posted on lbt for some time now. i had some problems and in august of 08 had a complete unfill. varying circumstances kept me from getting a fill for almost 6 months. when i could start getting filled i was super sensitive and could only handle very small fills. fast forward to today. i have not lost a single pound since then. well, i lose, i gain, i lose, i gain. i have a fill scheduled for tomorrow. i hope its my light at the end of this damn dark tunnel i am in.

a few weeks ago i had a consult w/ a plastic surgeon about my Tummy Tuck. i set a personal goal that i have to lose 15 more pounds before i can schedule the surgery. but i keep sabotaging myself. i eat crap foods, i dont exercise consistently. i dont know what the hell i am doing. all i have wanted for as long as i can remember is a tummy tuck. now that it is SO close and attainable, i am screwing myself.

any advice or suggestions on how to get out of this funk would be greatly appreciated. thanks!

Edited March 16, 2009 by want_so_bad

[lapbandtalker 0]

Lapband isn't for everyone. If I were you I'd start at square one...which is basically where you are.

Get another doctor (as the one you have isn't working out too good)

Start over. If you cannot do what your doctor asks.... you've got a serious problem on your hands...a band and no way to get it to work for you.

You are the one who controls your weightloss- maybe try local support groups. Find someone who is getting banded and meet a few times a week.

Good luck and keep us posted on your progress.

[want_so_bad 0]

lbtalker- starting at square one is a good idea. dont know why i hadnt thought of it like that. i was banded by the same doctor you used, small world. i use a fill center usa doc for my fills. i dont blame any of my problems on him. its all on me and i know this. i think that having restriction again will do wonders for me and i will be able to follow the rules again. especially because i am going to think of this as if i just had the surgery...like you said, start over. my fill is early tomorrow morning and i am so excited to get it. kind of nervous because i have had such bad luck with fills lately, but excited nonetheless. thank you for your response.