Please--need Kick In The #@*!!!

[Mariposa Bella 3]

My restriction is gone, where did it go, has anyone seen it??? I am in so desperate need of another fill, I have lost my restriction and my will power as well. My ps said I can't have another fill for another two months, so I hope I can stop this binging. I am totally amazed at the amount I can eat. Today for lunch I had a 6 in ham/cheese from subway, bread and all, I hadn't been able to eat bread in a long time. Then an hour ago, I ate a glazed donut, the whole thing. What is wrong with me. I just came back from spending a gazillion dollars on ps and enduring so much pain and have lost my focus. I think part of it is that I'm not totally feeling well and letting myself indulge. I am so exhausted all the time, its taking my body alot to get back to normal. The ps said it would take longer since my food intake is less than someone w/out a band, but hell he doesn't need to worry about that anymore cause I AM EATING LIKE A PIG--PLEASE HELP ME, HELP ME..Maybe I'm just stressed out this week, the girls started school and I've been running crazy w/ them to school and to cheerleading and tumbling and picking up from daycare and grocery and oh I'm going to die from exhaustion. I'm so tired..Then again maybe its cause I just had my period this week, who knows, maybe I'm just not right in the head... Well, had to vent.

[DevilMayKare 1]

Well just think about THE (after) PICTURES we are all waiting for over in the PS section! Ya don't wanna add a new potbelly to the photo do ya?

STOP "EATING LIKE A PIG" and focus on your beautiful new and $$$expensive$$$ body! We're all waiting for the inspiration and everyone knows the best way to be inspired is to inspire.

Now SHOW US!!

[Jachut 487]

Calm down, what's done is done. Its a good chance for you to really think about tackling those head issues. Have faith in yourself. Those stressful situations you describe are exactly when I eat too. But this is a great reminder for you that the band is just something to help you overcome these, it wont do all the work. You can and you must continue to think about eating inappropriately and too much.

How proud will you be if you last those two months to the next fill and still continue to lose? You can do it, just take a deep breath and move on from a couple of little mistakes. They dont matter!

[vinesqueen 2]

Uhm, how is eating a sandwich like a normal person "out of control" and/or eating like a pig??? That is about what a normal person eats. Normal being someone your size.

You age a donut? OH MY GAWD! SEND IN THE MARINES!!!! TIME FOR AN INTERVENTION!!!!! (sirens going off in the distance, spot lights searting the night skies.... )

Calm down Estella! Has it occured to you that perhaps you body NEEDS extra nutrishion right now??? Extras nutrition means extra calories. Sure, not a gazillion calories, but have you looked at how many calories the subway sandwich has? Completely reasonable.

You didn't go out and eat a double pepperoini large pizza. You had a subway sandwich.

You ate ONE donut, not A DOZEN. Calm down, breathe. Here, use this paper bag because I'm afraid you are going to start hyperventilating. It's OKAY.

[MerryHearted 20]

.....you mean donuts are even AVAILABLE as 'singles'????

roflmao!!

Can someone explain why if you have no restriction and are eating "normal" amounts of food, why you would have to wait for 2 months before they'd give you a fill? Is it because you just had one? Because I'd think if you did just have one and suddenly found yourself with no restriction that you'd wonder if they accidentally punctured the tubing and your saline leaked out.

((hugs)) hang in there and try to stay away from the refined flours & sugars for now -- that really helps me with my cravings.

[Teresita 0]

ESTELA ESTELA!!!!

I AM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU, I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING FOR THE LAST 4 DAYS.

Ok here is what I am doing. I want a subway sandwich so bad I can taste it but I won't get one for the fear of getting stuck. But I have induldged in Arthur Treachers and yes then got stuck and I think that was from eating to fast.

Anyhow, I write down everything I have been eating since surgery. So when it turned into why too much food I began eating other low calorie filling foods. I have boiled eggs, oatmeal, some kind of fruit, Protein bars, and definately a Protein Drink sometimes 2 a day. I still stay away from bread because I know that is just major calories. I stay away from full fat ice cream, I get sugar free or low calorie. I also made a delicious, did I say delicious, pot of Soup. It is made with ground turkey and veggies but mostly cabbage. I think I will post the recipe in the food section. It has really been saving me.

Just remember you had to liquids before surgery and after surgery. Get back to some liquids, Jello, Water, popsicles, Protein shakes, gatorade, power ade, CRYSTAL LIGHT.

Whew, I needed that. This website is the BOMB!!!!

[I'llsucceed 1]

Estela- Hi girlie! Well one of the best things you did was write it down. Right!? So you feel you ate too much for a time. Well promise to get back up on that horse or even simply just exercise double what you usually do! Don't be so darn hard on your self. BUT do get back in the saddle & start again. You want this- you need this & you will do this!!! So take Charge girlfriend & tame that hungry with good stuff! You CAN DO IT!!

[NJChick 3]

Aww Estela

First thing is, if you have any more donuts left in the house DITCH THEM (I'll be over in 10 minutes LOL jk)!! Try not to have stuff that you know is going to trigger you. And Vinesqueen is right on the money saying you are eating like the normal person that you are.

I understand your afraid of slipping back into bad habbits so do a clean sweep of the house and start a new. You CAN do this.

When (if) I get banded, the one thing I know I can NOT have in the house is Peanut Butter. I sware I can sit and eat an entire jar w/a spoon followed by a huge glass of milk. My DD will just have to have it at her G'ma's house b/c I crumble around it.

How are you doing today ???

[giveyouthemoon 4]

Then again maybe its cause I just had my period this week, who knows

Okay, this part jumped out at me. I ALWAYS have a few days right before my period where my band is WIDE OPEN and damn, I can eat anything and everything and I WANT to eat everything. Okay, my period just passed, but right before it arrived, I ate two McDonald's cheeseburgers and a thing of fries. In one sitting. WITH MY BAND. Ugh. I SPUN OUT of control. But then a day or two passed and I was back on track. Aunt Flo arrived and everything evened out.

So IMHO, your venting is actually a good sign. You recognize that you have skidded off the road but this is "rock bottom" so to speak, so now, navigate back onto the highway girl. You know how to get here!

And tell your food demons to get back in the cage for another month!!!! (Jack calls his "the dragon"....use whatever visual works for you!!)

[Marimaru 7]

Estela,

Give yourself a little elbow room. You've done fanstastic so far, and you will continue to do so. You probably DO need the extra nutrition right now, and what you ate wasn't all that bad. Subway is a great healthy lunch, and one donut (in how long???) isn't going to hurt you. Riddle me this; what would your Subway sandwich and your donut have been preband?!?! I'd have had a footlong with all the fatty Condiments, a bag of chips, a huge drink, and probably 2 donuts (at least). Whenever I "do bad" I think back to preband and say "okay, so this wasn't so hot, but it wasn't THAT bad".

NJChick; Don't worry about the Peanut Butter. A tablespoon or two of that will sit in your stomach for a good long while. I highly doubt you'll be able to eat much of it when you are restricted . In fact, 1 serving of Peanut Butter makes a good snack.

[Mariposa Bella 3]

You age a donut? OH MY GAWD! SEND IN THE MARINES!!!! TIME FOR AN INTERVENTION!!!!! (sirens going off in the distance, spot lights searting the night skies.... ) Calm down Estella! Has it occured to you that perhaps you body NEEDS extra nutrishion right now??? Extras nutrition means extra calories. Sure, not a gazillion calories, but have you looked at how many calories the subway sandwich has? Completely reasonable. Calm down, breathe. Here, use this paper bag because I'm afraid you are going to start hyperventilating. It's OKAY.

Breating in paper bag................

Thank you so much, I really needed this. You are totally right, my husband told me last night that he thinks I should be taking in a little more calories to help my body recover from all the trauma I caused it (well, minus the donut) and that he hasn't noticed that I am overeating like I think I am. So I guess you guys are right, I ate a sensible dinner last night, Protein, Protein and veggies, so I did good last night. Then I rewarded myself and fixed myself a margarita and that made my day all better. he, heee..

Thanks all of you for all the encouragement, and I promise I'll get those pic taken this weekend. So that you can see how fabulouso I look....

[vinesqueen 2]

/e falls over laughing. Okay, you are completely freaked out about a donut, but a margarita makes the day better????

Okay, I'll be the first to admit that a shot or two of tequillia will fix just about anything... Except maybe a toaster. Pretty sure it wouldn't fix a toaster... May have to do some research...

[Mariposa Bella 3]

/e falls over laughing. Okay, you are completely freaked out about a donut, but a margarita makes the day better????

Okay, I'll be the first to admit that a shot or two of tequillia will fix just about anything... Except maybe a toaster. Pretty sure it wouldn't fix a toaster... May have to do some research...

I just love you, you are so great, you sure know how to put a smile on my face. Well since I was down in Mx getting all that ps, I brought back some tequila. Hadn't had any until last night and boy it was good. And I won't be eating any more donuts, don't have another board meeting until next month, but I'm not bringing the left overs back to the office, they are going straight to the trash.

Thanks and I can't wait to go home and fix me another margarita. Today, has been kind of stressful too, my little boy had to go see the ear, nose and throat specialist cause his voice is very hoarse for a three year old and next week on Thursday he'll have to go into the hospital and get put to sleep so they can do a laryngoscopy and a bronchoscopy of his throat to see if he has polyps or nodules. I hope everything goes well, I hate for him to be put under for anything. Please keep him in your prayers. He's so little, my little baby boy.

[Teresita 0]

I'm baaacckkkk, aunt Flo is my friend. LOL I found the donut you threw out. I was having a sugar attack yesterday. All I wanted was ice cream and cake all week. Soooooo I went to wal mart with my daughter and then stopped at Ruby Tuesday about 11am. strawberry tall cake please, thank you. Hummmmm I then had to pass Krispy Kreme a little while later, NOT, custard filled please, thank you. OK damage done, back on track. Soup, shake, Protein Bar and more soup today.

[EverSoQute 0]

Hello Mariposa,

It was really nice to hear you vent for some of us who don't. But I think I will next time I fall of the wagon. I will keep you and your baby in my prayers