Gaining after Losing..Help!

[mikesmom 0]

Hello Lucky #7's. I was band way back in July on the 28. I joined this group then but have been away. I am returning because I am down and out and my doc suggested getting on and finding some support. Soooo here I am. I will fill you in on my scoop and then hopefully get some response. Thanks in advance.

So I was doing great, started at 260 and was down to 174, just chugging right along, I was too tight, but loving the restriction and weight loss, well, I had an episode and it hurt! I thought I was going to die, for real. My vit. got stuck and after that I started to pb all the time and reflux, heartburn. I was freaking bc I thought I broke the band. I went in and my doc took out all the fill and then...well...now two months later I weigh in at 194. One Ninety Four. I am angered, depressed, shocked, and disgusted. I haven't told many people about being banded but the ones I know I feel so embarrised, like I wasted all this money and time and i am just such a failure. I was so disgusted I kept putting off going into the doc because I thought I could get back down on my own and then go in. I just kept getting bigger.

I am not asking what to do. I know what to do, I am just sad and do not know who to turn to. The support group in my town has been dropped and the nearest is 1 hour away. I have three small kids and a husband who is really busy and its hard to get away. Besides, although my husband says he doesn't care I really think he thinks this all riduculous and a tremendous amount of wasted money. Which I guess is how I feel because I am letting him and myself down. Don't I sound pitiful..yuck..this is really not who I am, I swear.

I have to get back on track and I have to do it now. Besides this group I am going to look for a Dec group and see if I can find some others that may be in the same boat.

So today I did see the doc and I have this terriable cold, I was going in to have a slight fill because by the end of hte day I can eat a lot, like normal, Pasta , bread etc. On the way into the office (it is one hour away) I had a string cheese. Well it really filled me up and while I was at the doc I was making noises..you know the ones from your throat, he heard them and said he thought I was fine but thought that perhaps I should see the psych docs..I told you, I am in bad shape, he suggested seeing them and getting back on a positive note and seeing if that helps. He is right, am depressed, but it just made it worse when he suggested it. I still think I need a slight fill and the cheese was making the noise because of all the sinus drainage.

So I will have to review the rules and get on it. Thanks for listening.

[salsa1877 10]

I too had some difficulties. I lost 110 pounds, had plastic surgery and then started creeping back up. Please know that you are not alone and that we can do this together. The best place to join would probably be the main board as we don't generally stray from that page which is why it has taken a while to get a response.

You are not in this alone. This is a great group

[IndioGirl55 32]

Come back to the main thread - like salsa said we don't check the this part of the thread - come post on the thread with the most post heck I son't know what it's called - but you know the one - we are here for you

here the link http://www.lapbandtalk.com/f94/lucky-sevens-july-07-bandsters-35160/index830.html

Lucky #7