Zoe 6 Posted July 22, 2005 I can manage my meds, feel good about myself (well most of the time, most of you have read my posts and know what I mean), and am just ready to get my life back together. I believe this surgery is the final step in getting my life back together, to finally be "normal" and maybe not so defensive about stuff. ...It isnt me, Jodie, that dips down, I am a whole other person, I look and sound diff, but I am aware of it. I dunno I really am crazy, so thank GOD for Welbutrin and TrazadoneHi Jodie. I think it's great that you are managing control of your life at such a young age. I have had problems with depression (not just bad moods but total despair and paralysis) since I was a child, and I wish I had been as assertive about getting treatment as you have been. Remember, everyone has problems, and lots of people think they might be crazy -- but if you are "dipping down" the way you describe, you really do have depressive illness, and no one should judge you for it, including yourself. You sound like a very wise girl who's been through a lot, and is trying to create the best possible life for herself. Keep on the meds as long as your doctor recommends them, and remember that you have lots of wonderful things in life to look forward to, especially since YOU are helping to make them happen! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites