A change in perspective

[BethFromVA 5]

I used to want to lose weight and look the same I did when I was in my 20s and had a hot body.

Now I want:

To see my clavicle, a rib or even a waistline again.

I used to want to lose weight and be able to turn guys' heads again.

Now I want:

To be able to tie my shoes, walk upstairs, and (blush) have sex without difficulty.

I used to want to lose weight and look good in a bikini again.

Now I want:

To not be staring diabetes in the face, not worry about high blood pressure, not have my knees, hips, and feet ache, and not see this fat person staring back at me from the mirror -- when I catch a fleeting glance, of course.

I now simply want my health and quality of life back. I want to have pictures of me again (few taken in 15 years)! I want to shake the embarassment, the sadness, the self-contained lonliness because I don't want to (or can't) do some things with others. I used to want to look great again, but if my body looks halfway decent after my journey, I will take the blessing and look at it as icing on the cake. My vanity days are over. I just want my life back.

[coltonwade 27]

AWESOME AWESOME Post !!!

Can I steal this and put it on my blog ? And start an "I use to wanna" ? I'll give ya credit for it ? Great way to look at things !!

Mindy

[BethFromVA 5]

I'd be honored, Mindy. Thanks!

[bonytoni 0]

I love it too.

I wanna sleep without snoring, wear a necklace without an extender, run up a flight of steps easily, and get up from the chair without being numb.

Keep up the good work

[coltonwade 27]

I remember wanting to lose weight in high school to be " SkinniER "

Now I wanted to lose weight to NOT DIE .

Mindy

[coltonwade 27]

I'd be honored, Mindy. Thanks!

AWESOME I put something similar on there and gave ya credit for it !

[BethFromVA 5]

OMG, Mindy, I just looked at your ticker! You freakin' ROCK, girl!!! Can I be just a little wee bit envious if I don't mean it in a bitter, green sort of way? :eek:

[bonytoni 0]

So true, not to die but to life right? It could be a slow death too. Just like any other addict I think. Get to the edge and have to make a change or else. Best to you and so glad to her about your progress. I am a newbie

[noosagirl 0]

I hear ya all! I want a good sleep, not snore and for my husband to sleep in the same room as me. I want my back not to be in pain even if just for a day a few days would be even better. I just want the life I deserve to have.

[serenity55 15]

Beth, well said! It's really funny how things changed for me as I got older. You rock too, sister!

[pebbles1970 0]

Great post, I want to be able to take my wedding rings off and clean them properly, then put them back on with ease.

[BethFromVA 5]

Omg, how could I forget the wedding rings?? The diamonds are so dirty, but I can't take them off without removing half the skin on my knuckle...

[coltonwade 27]

I have not been able to wear my wedding rings in 7 yrs , they were too small.

I wore it on my pinky for a while. DH went went out and bought me a "new" solitaire because I refused to get the old one sized.

NOW The original wedding band is almost TOO BIG !!!

[coltonwade 27]

OMG, Mindy, I just looked at your ticker! You freakin' ROCK, girl!!! Can I be just a little wee bit envious if I don't mean it in a bitter, green sort of way?

LOL Your too funny ! umm im not quite sure what to say to that ?

I would rather be an inspiration than the reason of someone being envious i guess ? Is that coincided ? I guess you know what i mean . LOL

But thank you . Let me know if you need anything, your doing great !

Mindy

[BethFromVA 5]

Inspiration is good. You knew where I was going!

Your pics look great, btw. I bookmarked your blog.