My doctor REFUSED to give me a fill!

[Roheryn 0]

I say enjoy the restriction you have! You may be one of the lucky ones who wont need a fill! Or maybe the doc put in a little to begin with!

If I was losing and not REALLY hungry I'd be holding out on the fill myself!

[msnenequeenie14 0]

I am so glad I read this thread. I have been going back and forth with my anxiety. First I was anxious because I have no restriction and I can pretty much eat anything, but when I do and I get that old familiar stuffed feeling, I feel terrible about myself and life in general and I can't wait for the fullness to go away. I feel hungry often, this scared me to death at first, now I actually really like it. I realized that I have been overweight and over eating all my life, so before getting banded it has probably been more than 15 years since I actually felt a hunger pain in my body. Sure I would say I was hungry, just as an excuse to eat, but I really couldn't even recognize what hunger was once I got banded and started feeling it again. I am long over due for my first fill, and I desperately want one now becasue I don't want the knowledge lurking in the back of my mind that I can actually eat whatever I want, PLEASE TAKE THAT ABILITY AWAY FROM ME, but I actually like being hungry, to me it kind of signals I didn't over eat yet. So far, since being banded I have gotten all the way up to 29 lbs lost, but, with no restriction, one bad weekend put back on almost 10 lbs. I have been trying to set mini goals for myself, but they are so hard to achieve. I figure if they were easy, then I wouldn't have needed the band in the first place. Anyway, I have an appointment for a possible first fill on 10/14/08 and I am nervous and anxious, but really looking forward to knowing what the restriction actually feels like, I am longing to know what not having the ability to over eat (because I have the desire) feels like!!!

BANDED 06/30/08

Starting Weight 339

Current Weight 310

Goal Weight 155

Edited October 9, 2008 by msnenequeenie14