Turkey Day - at my house?!?!

jmegirl · December 1, 2008

Well, Thanksgiving went off without a hitch. We had a lot of people, way too much food, and everyone enjoyed themselves. We decided to cook the turkey in a Roaster Oven to reserve the oven in the kitchen for everything else, and that booger was done an hour and a half early! I had no idea the turkey would cook so fast in the Roaster Oven! So, as a result we had a slightly dried out bird for dinner, but thankfully we also had ham.

It took my husband and I until Sunday to finally get the house back in order. Gosh, it's been such a long weekend! I worked Friday, we had a football game and a housewarming party on Saturday - so yesterday was laundry and cleaning day, haha.

I gotta tell you though, I didn't realize what kind of effect it would have on me not being able to eat a lot. I have progressed to normal foods now, but I still only ate about 10 bites before I was stuffed. 10 measly bites, and everyone else around me was chowing down on yummy food. Of course, no one actually noticed how little food I ate, so there were no questions.

After dinner while everyone was serving themselves dessert, I went into the living room and curled up on the couch with my mom and just cried on her shoulder for a few minutes. A little later I went upstairs to my bathroom to cry. Not being able to eat really bothered me. I guess I didn't realize just how addicted to food I am. Don't get me wrong, after 10 bites I was really full - I just wanted to keep eating. The food was good and I wanted more - but I just couldn't stomach it, and it was sooooo depressing.

So basically, there were no problems with the day at all, and everyone had a blast - but not being able to eat what I wanted to really took a toll on me, and what should have been a really enjoyable day with family turned into a slightly depressing day with family.

heartfire · December 1, 2008

Jaime,

Overall, I'm glad the day went so well. I am sorry tho that you had such a hard time. Good for you for actually STOPPING!!!

I think a lot of us are amazed at what catches us by surprise. We all think we're so ready- we've read everything we can find, we've researched til there's no more to research, we've looked deep inside ourselves to make sure we're READY for all of this! In spite of hearing other people tell their stories, we're all different and some things are going to surprise us.

I've been surprised with a few things. The least of which was how much I ate just b/c I wanted it. I always thought I ate b/c I was hungry all the time! Turns out Hungry wasn't the only time I ate! I've also been surprised at how hard it is to slow down. If I'm allowed (I have a 2 1/2 yr old DD) I have to sit and watch the clock while I eat. If I don't, I'm eating in 5-10 minutes, not the 20 that I should be taking to eat!

Hang in there. Do your mourning for food but also remember that it's really only the QUANTITY that you're mourning. We should be able to just about eat anything, it's just in much smaller amounts!

I did some of the same things. Things were so good, I would have just kept eating before surgery. This year I couldn't and I was thrilled later when I got away from the IDEA of the food!

I weigh in on Fridays and managed to still lose almost a pound this week. Last year, if I'd have weighed on Friday, it would have shown a significant gain! How COOL is that!!

You've got to find those little victories and make them exciting and happy for you! I think you did a great job!

justmel1957 · December 2, 2008

Sounds like you pulled it off beautifully! Great job!

You know, we all have those moments where we mourn food, but I have found that as I lose the weight, the mourning is replaced by excitement. I only have 20 lbs left til goal and the feeling is incredible.

Good luck as you continue on your journey.........

cookienay · December 7, 2008

Justmel is right!! I mourned food for a good 2 months. But now it is just "part of the life". I enjoy pretty much anything (though sometimes bread and salads do not agree with me) but just much smaller amounts. And... that is sooo exciting. I am down 68 pounds and have 32 to go. I have no doubts now that I can reach goal when at one time it seemed so hopeless. Glad you had an otherwise ok holiday, next year will be different. good luck and keep us posted!!!!