Disgusted with Myself

[Ailie 1]

I'm really disgusted with myself. I was doing great and then I got my first fill (only .5 ccs because I was doing so well). And at the same time he told me I didn't need to come back for 12 weeks instead of the usual 6.

Since I got the fill, it was almost like it had the opposite effect for me. I've been eating more than I should, and not always the right choices. I keep telling myself that I have to stop. I have been craving chocolate like crazy. I've been eating nuts like they are going out of style. At the same time I got the fill, I was on vacation from work, so I didn't really have a routine going on. I have put on a few pounds, nothing too bad, but I'm just disgusted. :thumbup: I'm still moving my body though, so that's good. I do Tae Kwon Do and have joined a gym to firm up the muscles that need to firm up. I think I'm going to call the doctor though and ask for another fill. I keep thinking, oh I can get myself back on track and then I think uhhhh, hello, this is why you got the band in the first place. Then I think, well, I better drop those few pounds before I go back to the doctor because he won't like it that I gained those few pounds.

Why do we do this to ourselves? Or at least why do I do this to myself (I'm thinking though that I'm not the only person out there who thinks this way.) ugh!

Anyway, thank you for listening. I had to vent for a bit. I will give the doctor a call for that fill.:smile:

[To be free 1]

If you feel you need more restriction then by all means call the doctor, why wait, this is why we have the band.

Please don't be disgusted with yourself, you have been loosing at a great rate.....the cravings do suck and we are only human. Besides it could be that you have gained some muscle which weighs more. Or your body could be adjusting itself........ see if they will give you the fill........that is why we have the band.

Until we get the right restriction it is tough.........hang in there, you can do it!

[anthrochika 0]

Don't be too hard on yourself you have lost a lot of weight so far and are doing sooooooo good. A few lbs could be due to muscle and muscle is good for fat burning. Keep moving try to lay off the chocolate even though I know it is hard sometimes....oh hey I saw at the grocery today that weight watchers has whitman's sugar free Chocolates that are bite sized and that might be an option as a snack sometimes? Try not to stress too much though just keep up the good work and don't worry about your Dr. he/she is there to help you not yell at you. I think you are doing great so keep up all your hard work, this is hard but you are doing it.

Heather