Presurgery...feeling sooo self conscious

midwestchickie · August 26, 2008

My surgery is set for Sept. 24...yay! We are going to Vegas for 10 days starting Thursday. Since I've spent about the last 2 months talking about and preparing for this surgery..I'm feeling so self conscious of myself. It's almost like I'm 16 again, and I think everyone in Vegas will be snickering at "the fat chick who goes on vacation". How stupid is that? Like anyone is paying attention to me..or like I would ever think such a thing about anyone else. I keep thinking thoughts like, "people at the pool will look at me"..."I don't want to go to a nightclub...I'll look fat"....ugh.

I just wish I could relax. We have gone to Vegas the last three years and I've weighed exactly the same and I didn't think like this then...it's just cause I'm so focused on my weight right now....I'm hyper sensitive about everyghing....

I just wanted to know if I'm a big freak..or if this is kinda normal??

Susie Girl 75 · August 26, 2008

Hey Chickie!

Don't even worry about it. The only reason that you are focusing on this is because your battle with weight is now at the forefront of your mind. I know ,it's easier said than done. I was just banded in July and haven't lost much weight yet (i've only had one fill and have zero restriction)... I went out with 2 of my skinny friends on Saturday and felt like a total cow... It never happened before, but now things like that seem to bother me, so what you're feeling is totally normal. Just hang in there and before we BOTH know it, we'll be the skinny girls!!! :thumbup:

Chi Town Susie Girl!!!

tcbeau · August 26, 2008

by your pic you are a beautiful girl. Anyway, there are alot of obese people in vegas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think the buffets attract them!!!!!!!!!!!!!

coolcrystal · August 26, 2008

Oh yeah, I know exactly how you feel! I went on a cruise 4 months ago and I felt the same way. I had been banded though, but only for a couple of months, so I hadn't lost that much weight at the time. I was so uncomfortable.. every seat I sat in.. it was just awful. What's even worse is when I look at those cruise photo's now I look so HUGE with this wide face and my hair was just hideous looking. ICK. I avoided those photographers who ask to take your photo's (thank goodness) and I told my husband that next year when we go on another cruise that I want to take as many of those photo's as I can.. lol.

What you are feeling right now is totally normal, but in the scheme of things, you really dont have that much to lose, compared to say ME, who was almost 300 lbs and just think, in 6 months you could possibly even be AT goal. I know some folks in my group have already lost like 70-80lbs.. its rare, but it does happen.. but for sure in a year you'll most likely be at goal. then your next vegas trip will be even better!

midwestchickie · August 26, 2008

Thank you everyone for your kind words! So nice to hear, and my avatar pic is terrible~hehehe~it's one of those "take it with my computer while I sit here pics"!! :w00t:

You are right, I told my dh that next year, I was going to wear "slutty clothes" to Vegas. I'm going to try and stay focused on that and have a good time and start my new life shortly after we return.