depressed as nothing changes

[bullpen87 2]

I go back to the doc Sept. 23rd for a fill under flouro because my port is shifting. I have lost no more weight but haven't gained either. I am just feeling sorry for myself. Problem with that is, that I am the encourager of those I talk to. I should know better. I know that things may probably get better in time and keep up working on myself but these days, it's hard to keep your chin up. I'm hoping for brighter days ahead.

[juliegeraci 7]

Girlfriend I so get it, hang in there. I just lost 6 lbs but hadn't loss anything since January. I had to get the right fill level, join Weight Watchers and just try harder. You can do it, I believe in you.

[flowers 0]

My port is shifting too, even though my doctor says it cant be shifting, he stitched it under two inches of fat.

I am getting filled (I hope if they can get to the port) tomorrow under fluro to look at the port.

I woke up one night and knew the port had moved and immediately felt for it ..... and there it was. Wasnt there before so I could just feel the edges of it.

Im feeling like tomorrow will never get here so I know whats up and if its turned too much or what. The fill doctor Im seeing, only does fills every other Sat in one of two cities, so I have been waiting since last week to go see her.... Tomorrow is finally almost here so I will know.

[bullpen87 2]

Thank you all for the kind responses. Encouragement always takes you farther than a chocolate donut ever could. I find out on Sept 23rd about fixing my port or just doing fills in this awkward manner for a while. The doc is currently having to "search" for the opening whenever I need a fill. Ouchy....dig and repoke. I'm tough though...

[flowers 0]

Just curious as I seem to have a loose port too. Is your fill doctor doing the fills under fluor?? I thought thats what fluor did, was show the port so the doctor didnt have to prod and poke.

My fill doctor says even if the port turned 90 degrees, she can still get to it, even if its a little harder that way.

[cookielover 1]

Oh man- I needed this post! I am so discouraged because I haven’t lost any weight since Feb. UGH. I am so down sometimes that I won't even come on LBT, because I don't want to see how good other people are doing, and what a failure I have become. (Wow that feels so good to type that out loud. It feels so doomed when you keep things bottled up inside, and they eat at you until you feel empty.) Well two days ago I decided that I have to do something about this. There is no turning back, I am moving on with my exercise, eating, and staying in contact. (No more shame.) My goal is to lose 3 pounds. Has anyone ever had such a tiny goal before? Maybe not but it will be mine. Thanks for letting me ramble on. (Oh jeeze I am crying right now...see what a heavy “weight” can do to you.)<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p>

[bullpen87 2]

I have to go under x-ray to find out how much my port has turned. Normally, doc just fills in office by feeling around. It hasn't been easy to find my port to last two fills.

Amy..I understand..boy do I understand about the same for me. And I haven't felt like coming to LBT for the same reason. I take it personal that I (or my band) are failing. Who feels like ever sharing that kind of news...? But I'm glad to hear that I'm not alone. Good Luck to all...

[flowers 0]

I think I asked above, why are you doing x-ray instead of fluor. The doctor should be able to see the port under fluro too. I dont understand why he is feeling around, doesnt he have fluro in his office or access to it.

I had fluro yesterday and you can see everything, the port, the band around my stomach, the barium going down thru the lapband into my stomach (gross).

You could see the port quite clearly.

[strikeuptheband 16]

Oh man- I needed this post! I am so discouraged because I haven’t lost any weight since Feb. UGH. I am so down sometimes that I won't even come on LBT, because I don't want to see how good other people are doing, and what a failure I have become. (Wow that feels so good to type that out loud. It feels so doomed when you keep things bottled up inside, and they eat at you until you feel empty.) Well two days ago I decided that I have to do something about this. There is no turning back, I am moving on with my exercise, eating, and staying in contact. (No more shame.) My goal is to lose 3 pounds. Has anyone ever had such a tiny goal before? Maybe not but it will be mine. Thanks for letting me ramble on. (Oh jeeze I am crying right now...see what a heavy “weight” can do to you.)<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p>

Amy, I know how you feel. I keep fighting to lose the same 2-3 lbs over and over. I have set myself a small goal to have those 3 lbs gone by next thursday when I go in for yet another fill. Maybe this one will be the one that gives me restriction. I haven't seen it happen yet. I think its great to make small goals. Easier to focus and tell yourself you can do this small thing. Then when you do it, its wonderful and makes you want to set another small goal. Baby steps work. If i focused on my goal to lose 75 lbs, i would never get there. But by taking small steps, we can do it. I do this with exercising too. Don't focus on getting all around the walking trail....I just tell myself to make it to the next turn or the next tree, then set another goal. Dang thing about our trail, its a loop so I have to go all the way around to get back to my car! lol Hang in there!:thumbup:

[bullpen87 2]

I think I asked above, why are you doing x-ray instead of fluor. The doctor should be able to see the port under fluro too. I dont understand why he is feeling around, doesnt he have fluro in his office or access to it.

I had fluro yesterday and you can see everything, the port, the band around my stomach, the barium going down thru the lapband into my stomach (gross).

You could see the port quite clearly.

My doc doesn't do flouro in the office. I must go to the local hospital for him to provide flouro and/or x-ray and he does it there. I am just hoping Sept 23rd with be a good day for me and my band.