I'm doing this for accountability...really no need to read

blahblahblah · July 19, 2008

Since we moved (June 7th) and since I removed some of the Fluid out of my band (I was so tight I wasn't able to eat anything but liquids), I've been eating like a total pig and have gained 10lbs. I'm dealing with some post surgery (had TVT placed on Monday) issues, so I'm hoping it's not actually 10...but it's still there and I'm still stuffing my gob.

It's weird, it's like I do GREAT all day and then, at night, I'm Jabba the Hut...Ugggh!

So, I figured for 10lbs, I have to have to have to change my ticker...and seeing the BMI move back closer to morbid obesity, I am hopefully disgusted enough in myself to get back on it.

I know you all don't need to know this, but I'm sure some people will read it and then I'll feel like I'll have to get back on it...I've got a lot of supporters to make proud! and myself

Thanks for letting me spit it out-

Rain

libra · July 19, 2008

I can relate. I was beating myself up last night for how much I ate yesterday.

Northwest_Nance · July 19, 2008

I can completely relate to what you're doing in terms of sabataging your own diet efforts, and the way you're feeling about it. I'll bet almost everyone on this forum can. I can do so good for so long and then it's like I just snap. My biggest issue in the past year (in my whole life, really, but very consistently during the past year prior to my surgery) was the part about doing really well all day and then coming home at night and almost going into a trance of eating.

Of course you know that coming here and documenting it for yourself, confronting it, is the best thing you can do..... and if your past experience is anything like mine, it represents big progress. Because I could always go on like that for months and months and months without confronting it.

You can get back on the horse and get headed back in the right direction!

dwrd73 · July 19, 2008

First of all let me say CONGRATULATIONS on loosing 114 pounds. Your before and after pictures are amazing and also encouraging to me. My wife and I are just starting this journey. We will both be banded during the last week in August. Seeing your pictures makes feel it's really possible to loose weight even though I've tried many times in the past and failed. Thank you!!

I just moved as well this past May and we are not completely settled in yet. There are still boxes in the corners of some rooms that need to be unpacked.

So I understand the stress you are under. Plus you are dealing with other post surgery issues. I'm sorry and hope things begin to settle down for you soon. Keep yourself surround with your supportive friends. You are doing great.