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[suzyt 0]

Addy & Grey,

I know this is going to sound crazy, but maybe you need to eat a few more calories. A friend of mine (who also has the band) was on the web and calculated her 'rmr' or resting metobolic rate and determined she needed 1400 calories a day. Once she increased her calories, she started loosing again.

I don't know, maybe a thought?

[Great2BThin 5]

Oh the dreaded root canal did not go well. Got there and found out I needed 2!!! UGH!! They were teeth next to each other and both already had crowns on them. The infection had spread and caused issues with the other tooth. So he started both root canals, but since I was only scheduled for one didn't have time to finish. Also the tooth originally needing it was still rather infected and inflammed around it and was draining so much he couldn't finish filing one of the canals all the way down. That and the fact that it wouldn't get numb enough didn't help. I was in a deal of pain yesterday but feel better today. In fact I went to work and volunteered at the hospital. Am about to go workout to my Power 90 as well.

Interesting, at the hospital I visited some post op folks. One of them was amazed to hear I had weight loss surgery. That amazed me, he was shocked to hear that both I and the gal I was with both started at 305, she lost 135 lbs 7 yrs ago (she was bypass) and kept it off. He said we were such an inspiration. Silly guy, even thought I was at goal. HA HA, but alas, I have 20 to 30 more to go. My dr. said a normal BMI I should shoot for 169 but he would be happy with anything under 180 so we shall see where I end up.

Allie, oh yes, my mom is a real joy sometimes. I can so related to having feelings you are missing out. I feel that a lot with her and my sisters. I see others who's mothers or sisters are like their best friends and I get jealous and feel I am missing out on something. It's not for lack of trying either. But that being said, I refuse to let my mom continually put me down as well. No wonder I have self esteem issues!

Oh and did you hit Onederland now if you are down 107lbs??? If so you were awfully quiet about it!!

VZ you must've gotten our warm weather of a few days ago. Then we got the wind and now it's cold, even had a dusting of snow las tnight. COME ON SPRING!! That's why my ticker is flowers.

[iteachurkid 0]

Hey everyone! We'll it happened today. I thought I'd had food stuck before...I hadn't. I took one bite at lunch and that was it. I can officially say I've slimed now (um, where does that stuff come from). Let me tell you when you are teaching 11 year olds and running back and forth to the bathroom it is not fun. I called my doctor. I've thought since the week after I had the fill that it was too tight. I've decided it is. I can't live like this. They are able to get me in on Friday morning for a small unfill. It's weird b/c some days I feel like I have pretty good restriction, but then other days it's like over the top restriction (that would have been today). When drinking Water gives you indigestion, something's wrong. Needless to say, I'm hungry, but a little scared to eat. I may go try some broth or something.

On a completely different note, I had a wow moment on Tuesday. We had a team party at school (where our kids get awards and eat :crying:). All of these parents were there helping. One of the teachers on my team told me that she had thought twice that one of the parent's was me. I looked at her and wow, she is sooo much smaller than I see myself. It was a definite wow moment.

I'm going to attempt to attach before surgery and today pictures (ignore the mess in the background :laugh:). The before surgery pics are down 17 pounds (I wish I'd have taken one prior to the liver shrinking diet) and then I took the others today. I'm so glad I've taken pictures, b/c I have such a hard time seeing the weight I've lost. Every now and then I catch a reflection of myself or a shadow and am shocked that it's me. Even though I know I look different, I still see the 312 pound me. I guess that's just gonna take time. Have a great evening everyone!!!

[Great2BThin 5]

Wow, Teach, great photos. You look so much younger even now. Looking good! What kind of dog do you have? Looks like one of mine in the background of one of the photos.

[vzghj3 0]

Wow Teach you look fantastic! Well seeing all of these before and after pics has got me motivated. I think I'll actually allow my husband to take a picture of me. I do have one before pic sitting here from last Easter I can use since I have not taken an official before/after comparison pics. Would you believe that both my husband and I are very avid photographers, we have a dark room and all, but you sure won't see me in many pictures. Just never liked the person I saw in the photographs, could not believe it was me.

Long ~ I feel your pain, root canals are the worse. Glad to hear you are feeling better. And yes we most definitely must have gotten your weather here. Has been raining non-stop all day and about 55 degrees. My yard has a small lake developing! Back to the 30's tomorrow.

Have a good evening!

[iteachurkid 0]

Thanks Long! That's Annie my black lab in the picture. I also have a maltese/pekignese mix but he was outside playing when I took the pictures. They are my babies. Hope you mouth is feeling okay. I have had an abscessed tooth before and the pain was awful...I had a root canal as well and was so happy when the whole process was over. I hate the dentist (have to go a week from Monday). I've said often my hell would be a row of dentists chairs :crying:

[lucyavery 0]

Hey ladies,

Teach your pictures look great. You can really tell a difference. I have had a few issues at school but luckly, I have a restroom in my classroom it has come in handy.

Allie, all I can think of is OUCH!! on the taxes and other stuff, that really stinks! Money is getting really tight around here. I am fixing to start selling pampered chef in order to make a little more money. It also breaks my heart a little bit to hear that you don't have a relationship with your mom. Mostly because I miss mine so bad. My mom has been gone a year. Daddy has a girlfriend and I really like her and he is really happy. He is 62 and she 45, so go dad! Anyway he called me today and wanted to let me know that he got her a ring. He wanted my approval and she told him she did not want to wear it until he told me :crying: I am happy that he is happy.

Long, sorry about the root canal but glad you are better. I had one back in the summer and the dentist broke off one of the wire things up in my gums and could not get it out. I had to go to a specialist for him to get it out and finish the job. I was not happy!

I did a walk/run on the treadmill today while my dd was in swim lessons. I did 30 min without stopping. Worked up a good sweat. Tommorow I will work with my trainer. I have about 4 sessions left. I really would like to sign back up, but I'll have to see about our finiancial situation.

My weigh in day is tommorow, I hope to be in onderland. I will let you all know.

have a good night everyone

Oh Allie, is your big date this weekend that you won? That is awesome.

lucy

[iteachurkid 0]

Lucy, you are going to LOVE selling Pampered Chef. I've been selling for over three years and I really, really love it. It's an awesome company to work for. If you ever have any questions, just let me know!!

[allielee 263]

Good Morning Junies..

Hey there Long.. Yes I did hit onderland but I refuse to count it until I stay in onderland I have been going from 198-201 for the past week. When I stay under 200 for over a week then I will count it..lol.. So sorry to hear you had to have two root canal's ohh that is so terrible. I had a tooth break 2 weeks ago and had to get a fill and I thought I would die lol.. I would rather have any other part of my body worked on! I hate the dentist. I am a freak about going every 3 months for cleanings to be sure I don't get anymore cavities.. I hope it wasn't to traumatic for you.

Iteach.. Girl you look fabulous! Congrats!

Lucy, I wish I could have a relationship with my mom but honestly she hasn't been a "MOM" to me. When I was 11 I was abused by my stepfather, he was arrested and went to jail. When he got out, she took him back and sent me to live with my grandparents. They eventually moved in with us since my stepdad lost his job because of his arrest and it was hell for me. The abuse continued and got worse. She not only didn't protect me, she chose him over me. They are still together and my sister and brother are really close to them. I have a relationship with my brother and sister but it is strained. They want me to forgive and forget and get past it. (they are his biological children) I unfortunately can't forget. I am working torwards forgiving but choose to live my life on my terms. All I ever wanted was parents to love me, unconditionally. But that didn't happen. God did bless me with an amazing husband and children and I wouldn't change a thing.

I bet it is hard to see him getting engaged. I hope she is nice! My heart goes out to you as I am sure you have mixed feelings.

Well, I am at work and need to get motivated. I am still sick but need to work. This weekend is my Hubby and I's big date we won so I hope we are both feeling great by then!

Have a great day Junies!!!

[Apples2 19]

Good Morning Junies..

Hey there Long.. Yes I did hit onderland but I refuse to count it until I stay in onderland I have been going from 198-201 for the past week. When I stay under 200 for over a week then I will count it..lol.. So sorry to hear you had to have two root canal's ohh that is so terrible. I had a tooth break 2 weeks ago and had to get a fill and I thought I would die lol.. I would rather have any other part of my body worked on! I hate the dentist. I am a freak about going every 3 months for cleanings to be sure I don't get anymore cavities.. I hope it wasn't to traumatic for you.

Iteach.. Girl you look fabulous! Congrats!

Lucy, I wish I could have a relationship with my mom but honestly she hasn't been a "MOM" to me. When I was 11 I was abused by my stepfather, he was arrested and went to jail. When he got out, she took him back and sent me to live with my grandparents. They eventually moved in with us since my stepdad lost his job because of his arrest and it was hell for me. The abuse continued and got worse. She not only didn't protect me, she chose him over me. They are still together and my sister and brother are really close to them. I have a relationship with my brother and sister but it is strained. They want me to forgive and forget and get past it. (they are his biological children) I unfortunately can't forget. I am working torwards forgiving but choose to live my life on my terms. All I ever wanted was parents to love me, unconditionally. But that didn't happen. God did bless me with an amazing husband and children and I wouldn't change a thing.

I bet it is hard to see him getting engaged. I hope she is nice! My heart goes out to you as I am sure you have mixed feelings.

Well, I am at work and need to get motivated. I am still sick but need to work. This weekend is my Hubby and I's big date we won so I hope we are both feeling great by then!

Have a great day Junies!!!

I, too, was sexually abused by a family member (ten years). My mother shut me out and protected the ass and went to her grave without talking to me for 11 years. I made a choice also to protect my children from the abuse in the family and to protect myself from all of the crap in the family. I said goodbye and never looked back. It was difficult for many years but I value myself and they did not. I filled the void with good friends and by being the best mom that I could be to my boys. They respect me and know I did the right thing. I have forgiven and have no feelings when it comes to them. I do not want anything bad to happen to them but I do not care about them one way or the other. They are dead to me. This sounds cold but I am a very loving person but do not have the capacity to deal with them and their sick behaviors.

Hang in there. You have to do what works for YOU and your family. That's it in life.

[allielee 263]

Hey Apples.. seems like we had similiar experiences.. I know I did the only thing I could. By cutting them out of my life I feel better about myself. I am finally free of the strangle hold they had on me. I still crave their love but realize that it will never come. I surround myself with only people who care about me. I refuse to allow people to treat me badly and will not tolerate it. I know these are some of the reasons I had originally gained so much weight to protect myself. Since I have lost so much weight I sometimes feel vulnerable. Almost the same as at night I can't sleep without a blanket even if it's 100 degrees. I feel exposed and not safe. My weight was like a blanket for me. I feel more powerful and in control than I have ever felt in my life. It is amazing to me how much I have gained from letting them go from my life. I can honestly say I am HAPPY! It sounds like you Apples are also happy and I am so glad for you!!!

[livn4jesus 0]

Wow, Allie, you look great and what a difference! Keep up the good work

[livn4jesus 0]

Teach-Way to go, you look wonderful!

Apples and Allie-I am so very sorry you had to endure the abuse, no one deserves to be abused in any way. It is also good to see that you did not stay in toxic relationships. You ladies are Amazing and you have my utmost respect.

[allielee 263]

thanks livin.. I really love your name!

I am sorry to put such a debbie downer story out there!! LOL.. I am really ok and am feeling fabulous!! I am sure some people are like BAHH what do I say.. Please don't feel that way. Apples and I are survivors and are proud of it!

So how is everyone doing???? What are you beautiful Junies up to. What are all your plans for Valentines Day? Is anyone venturing out for new lingerie.. I thought about it but really I need a new bathing suit since the hotel has a pool.. I tried on my pre band bathing suit and it is a size 24w and lets say it doesn't stay up and all my goodies show..lol I hope there is a store that is selling them out there... eekk..

[Great2BThin 5]

Allie there are lots of stores here with swim suits out. I tried on some tankinis several weeks ago already at Target. That is what I decided I wanted this year. I may go shopping for stuff tomorrow for our cruise, but not sure how much to get yet as it is still 3 mos away, but I just have this 'need' to get something for it so it feels like we really are going. LOL

allie and Apples, I really feel for you and the abuse you endured growing up. And I admire you for becoming such strong women in spite of it today. I have a toxic relationship with my mom but there's no abuse in our history. She's just rather narcissitic (sp) and it's all about her and she never has anything positve to say to me about anything.

I did my Power 90 workout today with DH, he went with us today since he is off. The onlyl other time he did it was on Day 1, so he was amazed at my progress in 4 weeks. Next week we are moving to phase 3 & 4. EGADS, that means instead of 100 crunches we do 200!!! Not sure I can do that, but it's something to work towards.

We just got home from Texas Roadhouse. We went there tonight for and early Valentines date. It's always so crowded on a normal night we thought we'd go tonight and avoid the crowds since DH was off today. I had the rib/fries appetizer for my dinner. I ate 2 ribs, gave the other 2 to DH and never touched a fry, and I was stuffed. The hardest part was I absolutely love their rolls. DH does too and ate all 4 of them and then the waitress brought us more thinking we were both eating them, so he brought the other 4 home. I was too afraid to try bread so didn't though they looked mighty good!