Getting Filled Today

[katerzz 4]

Well wow its been a whole month! I'm finally home now (was in california house sitting for my parents) and today I get my first fill!! I've had no problems eating anything really, eggs.. bread.. you name it. I havent tried anything like steak and I listen to my body if i cant chew something *really* good.. i spit it out. I dont take any chances and because of it i've had no problems. Heartburn a few times.. but thats from the spices i think =)

according to moms scale I'm down to 360 now, we will see the official reading today. I started at 386 so thats a huge thing for me. My clothes are so big on me its kinda embarassing, but at the same time i want to wear them to show the world look at me I am shrinking. (sounds dumb eh?) I saw my hubby for the first time in 2 weeks yesterday and he is amazed at the difference he can see. (had nothing to do with my pants falling off my butt he trys to tell me)

I have been doing good from what I can tell. Its a hard journey and i know people make mistakes. I have made a few, luckily I just felt guilty not sick! Taco bell nachos is a thing of the past now after 3 trips I thought I was going to get addicted! I'm enjoying icecream still but I found sugar free icecream which makes me feel less bad about it. I'm averaging about 800-900 calories a day. I take at least one Protein Drink in the morning and now that I'm home I'll start doing another at night. Once it warms up.. *it was snowing on tahoe yesterday* I'll start hitting the walking trail with my hubby and get some exercise in.

Tomorrow I start my new job at the hospital in the surgery department. I was hoping to loose at least one size before having to go in but I think im still borderline so today I'm going to go buy a set of scrubs just in case they dont have any my size for the employees to wear. I dont want to be embarassed my first day of work. (they do know i had the surgery) I know things will get easier but for now I'm still the "big girl" so I have to make things work for myself.

I feel like a whole new person.. someone different really. The pscyologist tried to explain how this would happened and of course I thought nah.. not to me I love who I am. Well.. the truth is I didnt love who I was and now that the ball is in my court I do love who I am becoming. Its hard after being away from my hubby for 2 weeks when I discovered this now of course I have a ton of doubts and thoughts I shouldnt be having but I'm going to just work through everything and realize that this surgery was the first day of the rest of my life.

[Iluvharleys 15]

You are doing a great job! Good luck with your fill! Give your hubby a great big hug for that nice NSV he gave to you!

[Mita 2]

Great going.. Good luck on your fill and your new Job.

Nice hubby you have there for noticing.

[katerzz 4]

Well i just got home.. doctor decided to wait a couple weeks to fill me up since I'm doing so well without the fill. No worries to me of course since I am on solids and can eat just fine and still am loosing weight hehe

my port site was pretty sore when he went filling around I guess its a bit higher than it should be but the tissue is fixing it up or something lol!

[Jammin & Losin 1]

Sounds like you are doing great!!! keep up the good work and congrats and good luck with your job also!!!