Sleepless nights...

[mrsgriffin2u 1]

Ok, so I'm getting banded on July 2nd and am already losing sleep. I kept dreaming that I've already had my surgery and my "incisions" were hurting. I'd roll over on my side (I'm a stomach girl, but am trying to get use to sleeping on my back) and it "hurt." So I kept waking up to tell myself that I haven't even had my surgery yet. The dreams are starting about my surgery. I had a stupid dream last night that I slept thru the entire recovery and I was upset because I wanted to remember what I did right before I was put under and what I said when I woke up. ??? I had a check-up with my PCP yesterday and she was asking about the surgery date and then checked my heart rate - it was 104! Just talking about it gets me all freaked. I've never had surgery before and I'm so overtaken by fear that I almost feel that I can't be excited until I'm post-op. To top it all off, I'm an emotional eater. So unfortunately, my pre-op diet isn't going as planned. I'm not gaining but I'm not losing. I've lost 35 lbs pre-op by I had hoped for much more. I'm trying to exercise to balanceit out but I don't know...

UGH! I don't know why I'm being such a baby, but now that I'm not sleeping it's making things worse. Thank you all so much for letting me rant. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have you guys to turn to. My husband and family just don't understand the emotional side of this. They can listen, but unless you've experienced it, it's hard. LOL - maybe no one else has experienced this. Maybe I'm just going crazy! :confused2:

[Barbiek 0]

Hey Amanda,

My surgery date is July 2 as well and I am going crazy! Losing sleep, nervous, but now as the date gets closer, I am TERRIFIED! I'm not dreaming, but I am doubting my decision. I keep thinking that I am going to die on the table and leave my children mother-less and my husband wife-less. And since I haven't told anyone about my upcoming surgery besides my immediate family, I keep thinking that my husband is going to have to call my work and tell them that I died having weight loss surgery! How embarassing! Is this crazy or what? This is what I think about every moment of every day right now. But then on the other hand, I tell myself, if I can do this, than I will feel great. I have been wanting this for so long, and now that's its actually here it is very scary. Since we both have the same surgery date, maybe we can keep in touch and "compare notes." I will say a prayer for you. Good luck and try to get some sleep - without the dreams.

[plain 12]

Relax, ladies! It's all good.....easier said than done, I know. The surgery is a breeze with very little pain (only some minor discomfort). It'll be over before you know it and you'll both be on the road to skinnyville, LOL.

[mrsgriffin2u 1]

Thanks guys! It's wonderful to know that someone else feels like I do... I mean, I wouldn't wish this fear on anyone, but to know someone's right there with me helps a little. I'll definitely keep you updated!

Last night's sleep was a little better - not as many dreams!