almost there and scared

[want_so_bad 0]

i am 25 lbs from goal and it scares me so much! i have always been the chubby one, then the fat one... what will i do with myself when i am "normal" sized?

this fear has kept me from getting the fill i have needed for the past several months. i have maintained at my current weight now for months. this is the weight i was in high school. although my body looked much different at this weight then...dang kids!

i have scheduled and canceled and rescheduled my fill a few times now. it is set for wed the 18. not too far away. i am keeping it this time. does this mean maybe i am ready now? i dont know. i am really scared and nervous for this fill, which will be my 3rd.

anyone else experience this? any ideas on ways to deal?

thanks

[Manatee 4]

Just go do it. Get to your goal and see what happens.

You can always gain the weight back later :smile:

[want_so_bad 0]

gain the weight back? are you mad man? i dont believe that to be an option! lol... but i like the whole just see what happens idea.

i am almost in some sort of panic about what shoud i eat before wednesday that i know i wont be able to with proper restriction again. i , have become lax in my eating habits. not horrid, but not like i should be, not like i was. i cheat enough that i am maintaining, no gaining. good bye to these days, GOOD RIDDENS!

i am finding some excitement now about this fill!

[Whitepants 0]

Hi, I too am close to goal weight. I hope by this time you have gotten the fill and have reached your goal. I'm scared and excited to be getting close to goal. So, I've scheduled a date for a fill. Although my band had gotten too restricted I lost weight due to being unable to eat and keep anything down. So when I had an unfill my appetiate returned. So, with making bad chooses after that, I gained a little weight.

So, to hurry and reach my goal I'm getting another fill, for I want to be at my goal weight by March,2009. That'll put me at my 2yr band surgery date.

Let me know if you've reached your goal and how you're viewing yourself now.

[HeatherO 7]

I understand the fear of getting a fill. I had always intended on getting a slight unfill closer to goal so I could eat comfortably but sensibly. There have been times that I have been uncomfortably banded where eating was a bit of a chore but I was losing the weight.

Amazingly, I have found that I can still maintain or even lose (1-2 pounds a month so ultra-slow) with less of a fill now. I wonder if after all this time, perhaps my metabolism has changed with the steady exercise.