Approval, at long last!

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After 9 months of researching and 4 months of doctor's and nutritionist appointments, my insurance finally approved me yesterday. I'm tentatively scheduled for surgery in 2 weeks. I can hardly believe it! I'm thrilled beyond words and scared to death at the same time.

I'm still struggling with the things that I know many others do - how to keep this a secret, or whether to tell (only my husband and mother know), whether I will be one of the ones for whom the lap band just doesn't work, whether I will wake up a day or a month or a year after surgery and realize it was a huge mistake for some reason, worrying about electing to have major surgery and whether I'll actually wake up afterwards, etc., etc.

Hoping to find some quiet time in my mind and soul in the next 2 weeks in order to be at peace with this decision.....