And, just like that it's gone!

coolcrystal · April 1, 2008

My fill that is, or at least I think it is.

Yesterday I felt total restriction. Then this afternoon I found out my niece ran away.

Yes, can you tell I'm freaking out? she just turned 16.. too young and not even a driver's license. We've got some leads.. but nothing solid.

Anyway, so after I find this out, I eat two pieces of chocolate at work, which I don't even barely like chocolate!! Then I come home. I eat an entire can of tuna. Then a banana. I go to work out thinking that will make me feel better.. nope.. so then I eat a half cup of Fiber one Cereal with skim milk. Of course, I put two hours in between these and a work out, but just the day before I could barely get down 5 bites of pork tenderloin!! So, this tells me either I"m a total emotional eater, OR, my fill suddenly wore off in a matter of 20 hours.

I thought being upset makes you tighter?? well, it made me wide open and able to eat everything in sight! The only thing I had going for me was at least most of this was semi-healthy and I didn't run to McDonald's for a quarter pounder with cheese and ketchup with a large salty fry and BBQ Sauce for dipping.. OMG.. my stomach is growling now..

JaxBandster · April 1, 2008

Oh Crystal, I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through all this. My daughter's best friend ran away for a week over the holidays. She is like a second daughter to me and I was really worried. I know she's a tough girl but she has some issues going on and I wish that she had run here but she didn't. She will come back when she is cold, tired and hungry. Believe me.

In the meantime, it sounds like you did some emotional eating but I think you would have made far worse choices before you had your band. Just try to get back on track, drink Protein shakes if you get hungry, or sugar free Jello. Try to have things around that aren't going to hurt you too much if you over indulge. Everything will be okay.

Hugs

taz · April 1, 2008

Crystal, I'm really sorry to hear your neice is having trouble. When my daughter was around that age she would take off on her bicycle or just leave when we would fight. I still have a hard time understanding it but I guess her stress level was just very high. We also found out she was bipolar around that time. Those years were really tough. Trying to get in touch with her friends or driving around trying to find her. Sometimes she would stay with my mom and dad where she could be pampered a bit and have unconditional love. Nothing makes you feel better. This was before cell phones too which made things a bit harder. She's 23 now and has turned into a nice young woman. We were lucky that after 5 years we were finally able to get her on the right meds. Also many more blessings and a lot of hard work by sooooo many people. I am so very thankful she has turned into a nice young woman because, as you know, there were a lot of tough years.

Officeslave · April 1, 2008

I don't have any advice about your food issue - as I am a horrible emotional eater myself....but I wanted to say how sorry I am for the issues with your niece. I hope she comes home safe and sound really soon.

coolcrystal · April 1, 2008

They found her last night and brought her home. She had been gone for 3 days.. very scary. Apparently she told my sister that she is gay and is inlove with a girl. Well, my sister and her husband are about as "christian coalition/republican" as you can get and are always trashing gay people, so it was very brave of her to say this. Apparently she ran away with this girl she's inlove with. My sister said it was a phase she's going through; I told her she just needs to accept her for who she is regardless if she's gay or not. I'm just glad she's home now...

Hopefully I can get back on track today. I'm so glad I keep my ticker a pound heavier at all times, because I gained a pound and dont' have to change my ticker now. LOLLLLLLLL.

ReadySteadyGo · April 1, 2008

They found her last night and brought her home. She had been gone for 3 days.. very scary. Apparently she told my sister that she is gay and is inlove with a girl. Well, my sister and her husband are about as "christian coalition/republican" as you can get and are always trashing gay people, so it was very brave of her to say this. Apparently she ran away with this girl she's inlove with. My sister said it was a phase she's going through; I told her she just needs to accept her for who she is regardless if she's gay or not. I'm just glad she's home now...
Hopefully I can get back on track today. I'm so glad I keep my ticker a pound heavier at all times, because I gained a pound and dont' have to change my ticker now. LOLLLLLLLL.

That is a very hard thing to go through and she is incredibly brave. I didn't come out to my parents until I was 25 and I feel like they haven't really known exactly who I am for half my life. Tell your family to be glad that she is brave enough and loves them enough to tell them exactly who they are. There are also support groups. Pflag- Parents and friends of Lesbians and gays. They will get through this. I am glad she is home also.

And for an emotional eater you make great choices.

coolcrystal · April 1, 2008

That is a very hard thing to go through and she is incredibly brave. I didn't come out to my parents until I was 25 and I feel like they haven't really known exactly who I am for half my life. Tell your family to be glad that she is brave enough and loves them enough to tell them exactly who they are. There are also support groups. Pflag- Parents and friends of Lesbians and gays. They will get through this. I am glad she is home also.
And for an emotional eater you make great choices.

Yeah, she is very brave, because hell, her dad won't even watch Lord of the Rings because Ian Mckellan(sp) is gay in real life.. I'm like. WHAT!!? So, for her to come out and say this is amazing. My sister thinks its just a phase that she is going through as many young girls fool around with other girls when they are little.. but, she says she's inlove... usually when it's little girls experimenting with each other they aren't inlove.. and its usually a younger age like 11 or 12. I told my sister and her husband and my parents that none of them better treat her any differently over this..

My views are very different from my family. I'm the open minded person with several gay friends and heck, I'm just open minded with everything.. religion, sexuality, etc. Oddly, I am republican, but only fiscally, not socially! Anyway.. All I can do is support her, and if she ever feels like she needs to get away, she can come stay with me for a weekend since I don't live very far..

And yeah, I got lucky with the food choices. My hubby is doing SB diet so, we don't keep any crap foods at the house.. fruits, veggies, lean meats, and health stuff. But, I did have those chocolates at work!! :puke:

ReadySteadyGo · April 1, 2008

a few pieces of chocolate is better than a whole chocolate cake...thats where I used to go when I was upset, or rolls.

taz · April 1, 2008

Crystal, I am so glad your neice is safe. I am also glad she has you for support. Like I mentioned, my parents, especially my mother, was an oasis for her. She still loves to go there. She is so young to be going through this extremely adult challenge. I hope like you that her parents can show her unconditional love too.