Fill Paranoia!

[Nella337 0]

This may be a weird post, but I will put my thoughts out there anyway.

I started off at 191- and now at 130 (my goal weight). I have had some slight bumps along the road, but generally feel good. Obviously my life is different regarding my clothing etc, and I feel great about it. I don't want to lose any more weight, but on some days when I eat whatever I want, I tend to feel psychology that the weight is going back on, and it is time for a fill.

I go so far as to schedule for the adjustment and the morning of, the scale still says 130 lbs, and I have not gained anything, but I tend to become paranoid, in a "fear" that I don't want to gain anymore of the weight back.

I still have some restriction (not as much)- but a decent amount, and I just feel like I am afraid to gain, so maybe it is better to fill again JUST in CASE another 5 lbs might come on.

I think it is a PARANOIA, and not sure how I got here- but again I just wanted to share.

My husband doesn't want me to get any more fills, because he feels I am small enough, and to be honest, I am - but my mind is still in "fatty mode".

Has anyone ever experienced these paranoia's?

[shortgal 5]

I think gaining the weight back is a universal fear. I don;t know anyone that doesn;t go up and down a few pounds though.

Someone on the forum mentioned a book and it describes "adjustment addiction". Basically we start to believe that we constantly need a fill. We don't trust ourselves becasue we have failed so many times before so we start to believe the fill is the only answer.

Remember it's natural once you reach goal to eat a little more food than when you were in the losing phase. It's maintenance, enjoy it!

[Jesusislove 26]

Have no fear, the Lord is the light of your salvation, whom or what shall you fear. God is with you and you have done well. Fear nothing. I rejoice with you on your weight loss.

[kbinaz 0]

I think about that a lot...once I reach my goal weight there is going to be that looming fear of re-gaining. It is definitely something to be considered. But I think you are taking a wise approach. Weigh yourself often and if you see it starting to creep up,then consider a tightening. That is why the band is adjustable. It is our tool to keep control. Just don't go overboard, wait til you see yourself gaining. Hope that makes sense. Congratulations on reaching your goal!