My Fault

[Terrilen 0]

I cannot do this on my own anymore! I am admiting that I have been far from perfect in following the rules to have a successful lap band experience...that is why I am in the shape I am in right now. I was banded in 10/05 and am the same weight today and in horrible health. I have spent more time with my head puking in toilets and garbage cans than I care to say! It strated with my first fill..I only had 2 and never stopped!! My Dr stopped accepting Medicare so I just stopped seeing one...stupied of me I know! I think I have been swollen this entire time becuse I have never been able to eat anything other than mushies without getting sick....and I ate too much of high calore low nutrient choices! I never gave up diet soda,, I am truly addicted. There are soo many poor choices that IIIIIIIIII made! Today I sit here just having had an upper GI done and am soo swollen I could barley drink the contrast! I cannot eat..I can barley drink ..I am sooo thirsty and I am scared. I wish I never had this done!!! But I did and I must get a grip on it because chances are it is not slipped or errored...I pray. I need help and support starting over! This is all my fault and I have to fix it because it is destoying my life!

[jetti 2]

Terrilen

first thing you have to do is try to calm down. The good thing is that you have realized that you were on the wrong path and that things were not working for you. that is the first step in order to change anything. Im sorry I dont have any advise on eating while swollen or anything but I just want to let you know people are here rooting for you!!! You can do it!!! Good luck and keep on pushing and things will get better for you!

[rharriet62 0]

IT HAPPENED TO ME and I'm doing great now...YOU CAN, TOO!!! I was swollen and my band was so tight, I didn't even realize that I WAS throwing up and not eating right because it became NORMAL. The day I freaked out because I only had about 4 bottles of Zantac and was in Walmart buying more that it hit me! I went back to the doc, got a complete unfill, took Prevacid for 30 days, and let my stomach heal. Then, headed back for 4 fills over a period of 2 months and am now at perfect restriction. It's EASY to eat right now, I don't throw up, and it's a whole new me! I am losing about 4 lbs a week and I have NEVER had that weight loss before. When you are swollen, I think your body shuts down and you do not lose. I didn't lose for almost a year because of the swelling. GET AN UNFILL and heal yourself. You will be fine! I want to hear how it goes. PLEASE LET ME KNOW! You can do it!!! PM me if you have any questions!

[MamaHerm 0]

Terrilen,

Don't beat yourself up. Accept that you are human, made mistakes, and let them go. They are in the past. Start from today and look to the future. Begin by making wise food choices, and take it one day at a time. We've all been there. You can do this, and all these wonderful people will help you. Let us know how you are doing. We care!

[*susan* 1,709]

IT HAPPENED TO ME and I'm doing great now...YOU CAN, TOO!!! I was swollen and my band was so tight, I didn't even realize that I WAS throwing up and not eating right because it became NORMAL. The day I freaked out because I only had about 4 bottles of Zantac and was in Walmart buying more that it hit me! I went back to the doc, got a complete unfill, took Prevacid for 30 days, and let my stomach heal. Then, headed back for 4 fills over a period of 2 months and am now at perfect restriction. It's EASY to eat right now, I don't throw up, and it's a whole new me! I am losing about 4 lbs a week and I have NEVER had that weight loss before. When you are swollen, I think your body shuts down and you do not lose. I didn't lose for almost a year because of the swelling. GET AN UNFILL and heal yourself. You will be fine! I want to hear how it goes. PLEASE LET ME KNOW! You can do it!!! PM me if you have any questions!

This is also very similiar to what I went through and it is so not worth it. I had a complete unfill for several months because my system was so irritated. I am still slowly working myself back up to restriction.

Some of us have to go very slow with the fills as a very small amount can make a huge difference with us.

You can do this and we are all here to help you through this.

[Terrilen 0]

I finaly went and had my band floro'd and its a 4 cc band and it had almost 4 cc in it so with all the swelling and irratation I was just lucky it did not slip, irrorode or worse happen! I got a complete unfill! And OMG how wonderful to be able to eat again and not be in pain and not throw up!:biggrin2: No puke cups around the house..no hanging my head in public toliets!YUCKY!! In a month I am back on the Lapbandwagon! Thank you to all of you for your kindness and support! It helped allot!:biggrin2:

[cocodaisy 0]

Hi there my fault, I just wanted to ask you if you got an endoscopy? I also have a 4 cc band and I was at 3.75 and I was doing fine and then one day I was able to eat anything and I mean, bread, steak, etc. I went for an upper gi and they said the band looked fine, except it looked empty so I went in for a fill and when they emptied it there was only 1 cc in it so she added 1 cc and wanted me to come in for an endoscopy but I am too much of a baby so I just wanted her to fill it and now I have 3 cc's in there and still no restriction whatsoever. HELP Any advise would be great.

Glad to hear things are going well for you. Good luck.

[MerryHearted 20]

Terri - whew! I'm glad you got your fill out and are feeling better now. Sneak up on that restriction once you start getting fills again.

And don't worry -- you're not the only fall 05-er who is not at goal.