So Much Anxiety

[amc581 0]

So very soon I start getting all my preop doc appt's done and I have everyone of them scheduled within a a week of one another. I will be done my psych eval, which is my last before getting a date on 3/11. I think that i've been researching and so excited about getting the surgery that now that I know I have a week and 2days before it's set and just a matter of paperwork, I've been thinking about it non stop. I have so many emotions It literally causing me insomnia. I'm excited beyond belief, and scared of so many things, the surgery, the change in life, the possibility of failure. I feel like if i'm like this now, when i actually get a date I might end up having a heart attack from all the anxiety and the pressure i'm putting on myself. Not just to succeed in weight loss but my life changes too.

I thought about it tonight and had a conversation with my best friend and I really think my biggest problem in general is I constantly feel like I'm dissapointing myself, and my parents. Not that they are ever disapointed in me but I don't want them to ever be, I want to be the daughter there proud of not that causes issues , because sometimes I still make stupid childish mistakes nothing big, but enough to usually cost me money I can't afford to pay, or whatever so my unhappiness about feeling like I'm not perfect, manifest itself in my weight. Is anyone else like this? did anyone feel so much anxiety even before they got ther surgery date?. don't misunderstand I want this surgery! maybe my anxiety is about the unknown of being thin for good. I do think alot about buying clothes and going to the beach and feeling good about myself walking around in public. i just wish my thought didn't keep me up at night.:rolleyes2:

[Marimaru 7]

I personally didn't have the anxiety you are talking about, because I did all my band research when I had no insurance and no money... My mom and I were talking about a co-worker who had the bypass and was eating a decent amount more than she should have been and I mentioned the band. She said "Wow, that sounds interesting, you should do that, I'll pay for it". I was in the OR a month after that with Dr. Rumbaut. So that didn't leave much time. The night before surgery though, I did burst into tears and I couldn't stop crying for like an hour. I think I HAD anxiety, but I was just too excited to actually notice and my body said "YOU ARE DEALING WITH THIS NOW". heh

[Nologoz 18]

I can relate and I understand exactly how you feel. You are scared of failure and are probably hard on yourself for mistakes you have made in the past. Whenever I start to feel like you I have to stop and remember that there really is no option (for me anyways). I have an eating disorder that I often can not control. I then try to re-focus my energy on how to SOLVE the addiction/disorder in a way that will be successful.

The Lapband surgery's long term effectivness is statistically superior to non surgical weight loss programs. Even if you "fail" at the Lapband at least you made a rational attempt to fix your problem.

I'm not banded yet either and my emotions have been all over the place. I can sort of understand how you might be worried about getthing thin...but to be honest it's more about how others will react to you once you are thin. I wouldn't worry about this because there is nothing you can really do that will change how people react to the "new you".

Anyway, I hope your anxiety will fade away. If you are like me, the anxiety will come and go a few more times. I hope it all works out for you (and me). :rolleyes2:

[kathystrick 3]

I am starting to have the anxiety. I have been telling myself and my family how I am tired of failing at losing weight and I NEED to have this surgery so I can be healthy and happy. But what if I still fail? I know that is a possibility and it scares me to death!! To deal with it and all those other troublesome thoughts that hound me throughout the day now, I journal. I have a journal I am keeping solely for the surgery and tracking all my thoughts and feelings about everything to do with it. So even if I don't have anyone to talk to about it all sometimes, I am still getting it out. One day, I will be thin and healthy and read all that I am writing now and think to myself, "What was my problem???"

Good luck to you!!!

[KikiVal315 4]

...for us. no anxiety YET. but i do have the same fear of failure. putting all this money into my body and having yet another procedure fail (i had Lipo when i was 18. i know i wasn't mentally prepared). this time around i see things differently and i am trying my best to think & imagine the best outcome with my band. for me its not about image, i love my body as is, but my health is slowly taking a toll. i need this surgery and i know only i have the power to succeed; as do you. i too have started to write about all of this in my journal...it helps so much. i wish you all the best, keep your heads up, and remember your lbt friends are a source of motivation & support!!:biggrin:

[PhatAndHappy 0]

Hello.. I'm two weeks away from my surgery date. I'm on my liquid diet, and my children find a way to say jokes about my liquid diet! They think its silly that I've chosen to do this diet. I have not yet shared with them I'm having the surgery because I'm afraid they will make fun of my decision!

Sad and confused!