4 months out and struggling

morningoasis811 · February 19, 2008

Hello!

So I'm rounding the corner on 4 months post op. I am having a really hard time with deserts and sugar. I have fallen prey to holiday indulgences (cookie parties, brunches, dinner parties, valentines...) I have been losing about 2-5 pounds a month if that. I got a fill in January because I had fallen below 8-10lbs per month as per my Dr. I haven't gained any... so I have this maintaining thing down! that's not doing me any good right now.

I'm not being honest with myself, I haven't been on the support boards that much, i'm not tracking my food everyday, my excercise is less consistant. I guess I'n in the mindset of "I have the band, that means I can eat whatever normal people eat... just MUCH less". Not good.

With the band doing it's job and helping me out so much like the tool that it is, I guess I started getting cocky. I started feeling like a "normal" eater. I could have a few bites of desert and be satisfied. I could eat half an enchilada and be OK. Like all my friends who don't have a problem with food. But I am different. I know this, that's how I got to be obese in the first place. :thumbup:

I want to get back on track. I'm going to get more involved on these boards again, read about what people are going through. I want to hear about others struggles as well and successes. I feel that since i've gotten the band I've become more self involved (good for the most part) but It's affecting my home life, i'm out socializing more, trying to be there more for my friends, and now i'm neglecting my husband. I'm trying to be there and support people who were there for me... but I've transferred my energy. Time to put myself first again... with humility and care.

Just needed to put that out there and say it out loud.

I'm not the picture perfect bandster I was 2 months ago. Tracking and measuring my food.

I know i'm due for a fill soon, but I need to stop abusing my lack of restriction in the mean time. right? :lol:

laphappy40 · February 22, 2008

hey i feel you. 4 months out and i thought i would be losing at least 10 pounds a month. NOT!!! i lose about 5-6 pds a month. although i don't eat a diet per say, i do excersize 4 days a week and i even took a weight training class 2 day a week. i guess i have to be patient. i have lost 27 pounds but i wish it was 40. maybe i am being unrealistic.

ready2loose · February 24, 2008

I am really struggling with the food I eat. Not eating what I need too and eat sweets more often than I did prior to surgery. Need to exercise!!! I get real disgusted with myself to think about the surgery and the cost and now I am back to eating in my old style. I have an appt. tomorrow with doctor and am looking for a local support group to help with encouragement and maybe an exercise group. I will get past this stall and bad eating habits. Thanks for listening.

morningoasis811 · February 25, 2008

Thanks for your support... I love this website. I can't imagine going through this alone... I'm still trying to find bandster groups in my area.

I have a lot of pride and it's been really hard to admit that I'm not "succeeding" at this band... after losing 90 on my own... then gaining it all back, then having the surgery... should I "get it" by now... I guess we'll learn from our daily struggle...I try not to beat myself up. But I want to be the shining example of how the band can work when everything else has failed you... however we have to work hard, the band just helps.