fear of failure..

[DeLarla 22]

I've been banded 9 months and still fear failure. The Band is a miracle on one hand, but on the other it's just a tool that helps us find control. But the Band is fickle, so sometimes you can eat enough to keep you obese. Regardless, I'm still happy I did it.

[hopefull 0]

reply to fear of failure....I too have some of the same fears but coming to this site, participating in the pre-banding requirements at U-mass and positive thoughts, I feel I can really do this.

A couple months to go....Robyn

[PamRN 0]

I had those same fears and doubts. I find the difference is; a diet I could give up on. I could quit. This band wont let me do that this time.

I am most restricted in the mornings I can get down a cup of coffee most mornings, but some mornings I can only get half. I can't eat a meal until I've been up for a few hours, my first meal is generally small, part of a yogurt, or a couple of slices of bacon. I don't eat more because I can't, by lunch I can usually eat ok, but still can't over eat, I can do anything liquid, Soup or soft, fish or chicken, even pizza, but only one or 2 slices at the max, by dinner I'm starting to tighten up again, so dinner has to be light. I can't over eat, I can choose milkshakes, chocolate and other junk food during my hours of relaxed restriction, which can sabotage me just the same, but even then I can't eat too much. Even Ice cream can cause too full discomfort.

The band will stop me when I might normally not have stopped myself. I agree with Teresa, that there have been times, usually when out to dinner, or some special occasion, when I would really have liked to have little or no restriction, and my band decides to be very tight, but I understand that it's such a small price to pay for the huge positive changes I'm earning.

Because the band won't have it any other way, I'm learning how to make band friendly, and body healthy choices, and my body is shrinking to thank me for it.