Shrinkin' Violets- Part 2 Read Here

[Suziecat 379]

Good Morning.

Water Patrol is on Duty Today.

Snow is all gone. Ground was to warm for it to stay but now the cold weather is here. Suppose to stay in the 20's today.

Pam, Love to here your stories of where you live. It brings back memories for me. We made a day trip to Camp Pendelton when I was in High School. Think they were trying to recruit us. Now can you do me a favor and make a trip to Santa Barbara? I used to drive there alot and spend the weekend. Loved to go to the Mission. That is some beautiful scenery.

TracyKS, Loved, loved, loved the video. The whole thing was too cute.

Where's Haydee????

Working today than stopping at the grocery store for a few sale things. Gonna try to get my tax papers put together so I can drop them off. Need to get that done.

Everyone have a great day.

[Teachlady 3]

Good Morning, Violets..

I'm up early to greet Ethan , but his dad called and he's not going into work today cause he's not feeling well so Ethan won't be coming over. Sooooooooo I have the whole day to myself with nothing planned. The Bobster wants me to help him clean out his office. Now that is a major undertaking so I guess I'll be busy after all. The roads and side streets are frozen solid here. The newspaper said it was the worst ice storm we've ever had here. Now it's really windy and supposed to snow today. 6 days til I'm out of here to warmer weather.

Pam.. the 50 minutes I did on the elliptical trainer was in 10 minute spurts. And it's not an elliptical like you see in a gym. This one is just the wheels... no front part to hang on to, but I just love it. I'll post the pic of it again. Best piece of equipment I ever bought. Oh, and Stephen King is my all time favorite author!

Jennifer... when do you start the new job?? Better give yourself time to get over all your celebrating!! But congrats on the new you. When I think back on your first posts and how defeated you sounded, it's great to hear you so positive. You GO girl!!

Well, the East won the NBA all star game, so I'm happy. Now if MY Pistons can win it all again, I'll be VERY happy!

Off to go fix some Breakfast and then get dressed. Everyone have a great morning! Will check back later.

[TracyK 3]

TracyK~Welcome home...we want the G rated version.

LOL, the whole trip was rated G. No sex, drugs and rock & roll. Well, maybe drugs....the midol was plentiful:thumbdown: But, we did have a good time. We did really well at the first casino we went to (Coushatta). We actually left there with every cent we went in there with. And we played for a day. night and half the next day!! For those of you that gamble, you know that is a major accomplishment to still be able to have all your money after playing that much! Then we headed back and stayed in Lake Charles at LauBerge (sp?) and did OK. We managed to make it home with some money so that made it a great trip. I PB'd twice while we were eating in the cafe. I found out the the restrooms are like a mile away, or at least when you are sliming they seemed to be that far!! LOL

Judy-I am so excited for you for your upcoming cruise. Sounds wonderful!

Pamela-I have changed my mind about BB. There IS someone I want to get voted off...that Jen girl. She thinks she is something else! UGH!:wub:

I need to get Macy ready for school. I will return!

(did everyone get a valentine in the mail but me? :tt2: I think I will drown my sorrows in a can of slimfast, lol)

[Suziecat 379]

Laura, Checking on you and the storms. Did the tornados hit close to you? Keep us posted.

[TracyK 3]

I have not posted a full body shot photo in a long time, so here is one of me and dh at my moms house before we left for our trip. I sure wish my eyes would have been open...

[TerriDoodle 6]

Suzie - Thanks for the Valentine!! So cute! I just got it in the mail on Saturday! Gotta love that USPS!

[TracyinKS 7]

TrACY K: LOOK AT HOW SKINNY YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEAUTIFUL!

Charles saw my video and he just asked... WHY? LOL he does not get it!

[Teachlady 3]

WOW TRACY!!! You Skinny Minny you!! No one would ever guess you ever had a weight problem! Woooo Hoooooo!!!:wub::thumbup:

[Teachlady 3]

Just took another look and Tracy.. you need to get smaller clothes! Those are just hanging on you, dear!!

[Daisalana 33]

Wow Tracy, I would have never known you qualified for WLS!! You look not only 'average' but SKINNY!!!

Hm.. I must have missed something. The past 2 nights we had REALLY fast winds, but I didn't know there were tornadoes. Must have been somewhere else in Alabama?

Ok V's, I am facing a dilemma. It is frustrating, and I go "Damn I wish they were here, they would hold me accountable". Friday night DH said (in bed) "You do realize, you're eating a lot of candy? " and I of course got very defensive. This is why I use to eat in 'hiding' so no one could judge me. We didn't fight about it, but I was emberassed and defensive, and he was just trying to be a good hubby.

I am just making bad bad BAD choices lately. I say, tomorrow will be better. But this is where it's so messed up. Yesterday I was eating like some sausage.. which always hurts.. so it hurts, get that stuck feeling, slime a little bit, and my band actually feels like it's in pain. This is where I think "Oh no, please don't be messing up my band.. don't slip, don't stretch", etc.

So most the time this is where I stop eating and just wait to feel normal again. Not last night. I ate a snickers bar. On top of the pain. Making more pain, and more slime. I hate myself while I do it, but I don't stop. What am I doing? I feel like I'm trying to screw my band up :tt2:

I had heartburn (from having OJ, salsa, and sausage in one day and no prilosec for a week) but I thought.. here it is, heartburn, slipped band.. blah blah.. so I'll just keep cramming food in my piehole. I'm not proud of myself lately, and I am in a rut. I guess all the indulgences from the vacations I've had, put bad habits into my system and some reason I can't kick them back out. Everyone morning I start with good intentions, then I go into the mind-numbing zone where I just want to eat and eat and eat :wub:

[Kat817 19]

Yep Tracy--you look wonderful!!! You have lost in a way that makes you look like you have always looked like that! I am so happy for you girls that did this while you are young!!

TracyKS---you and Robby are too cute! Yeah I had a woman email me the other day---that if I kept a diary of my weight loss, maybe I needed to pull it out and read it, it is not always easy, and I could not have lost over a hundred pounds if I was eating birthday cake, and she resented me lording my loss over everyone!! That everytime she opened a post there I was! And that everyone did not need to be welcomed by me, nor hear me tell them good luck.

I hum-hawed about how to answer her----eventually replied that I had indeed lost over a hundred pounds, and that no I did not dine on birthday cake everyday, but I had eaten in many times...and plan to continue. Just as I plan to to continue to welcome people in a friendly manner, and plan to continue to sincerely wish them luck, and that she was included in that. Never heard another thing, and have not seen any posts by her--but I have been gone for a few days.

I truly have never tried to do the lording it over anyone thing!

Sitting here waiting to hear something from my Dr. He is supposed to call today with my appointment date with the PS. I will be pushing it with our trip, and those Rick and I have planned as well....but it will be ok. I may have to opt out of the river trip----depending on when I can soak my incision, but if that is all---no biggie, although I was looking forward to showing off the pics and saying I DID it!!! I would still prefer to have all this excess skin gone!

Also waiting to hear from the oral surgeon. The temporary hold thing he put on my tooth while we wait for the surgeon to fit me in, come off, leaving just the back of my tooth, and a root.....and of course my dentist is out of town. But the oral surgeons appointment is not until the 27th! I have been unable to eat since Saturday morning! I am on liquids, then I had a small amount of mashed potatoes last night, and tried some cottage cheese....I was getting light headed everytime I stood up! But anything I have to move my tongue to chew--makes my tongue get cut on the tooth. Not to mention anything down in there hurts like hell! So....I have been drinking--lots!

Which is why I am on the couch with Rick, and not snuggled in my bed! He is an old Mother Hen! He woke me up every few minutes and made me drink!

So, you would think---2 days---90% liquids---and not high calorie liquids, I would lose weight---I did not budge! I mean nothing! I woke up this morning and went---hey I bet the scale moved now---I could have cried! I know I was also very inert---but still!

Maybe when I get my thyroid supplement figured out.

We are actually having a break in weather! Some of our snow got melted off---what a relief!!! But my inlaws are stuck in their house now due to mud! They are actually using our truck---which is scary as heck! It is a huge 4X4---3/4 ton long bed, extended cab F250 Diesel truck! Not something a woman who is used to driving a little Escort needs to be wheeling around in!!

The wind blew all night, that helps the mud dry up.

Seems like everytime I come back here, the format has changed again!

Talk to you when I hear something from a Dr. to report!

Kat

[Daisalana 33]

To add to this, I am extremely and dangerously complacent. During this journey I got to places where I go.. I'm not losing quick enough, I don't look normal enough yet. Well, now I feel normal. I know I am at least 60lbs overweight, but that's not 150lbs. I lost 92lbs. I am falling into "I could be happy here". I need to get out of this mentality. We went bowling Sat. night.. happening place apparently (I've never gone on a weekend night). There were a LOT of overweight girls all hussied up to find a man in the bar. I saw one girl who looked my build. I have a hard time figuring out how I 'really' look, as I know I have some dysmorphia.. I asked DH if I looked like her. He said "Oh god no, you are WAY smaller than her". I have played this game with him for years, I find someone who I think is fat and I want to know if I look like them or look skinnier. He doesn't lie. I just can't tell. So I was really proud to know I didn't look like her, because she was one of those people who are overweight- but carry it well. She looked sexy. So to know I'm 'WAY smaller than her', just makes me feel good. Anyway, I need to start finding goals that make me want this again. The fact that I don't gain despite my indulgences just makes it worse. But wow, how nice to be in ONEderland. Maybe I need to hype that up for myself??? I was 240lb yesterday.

[kity 2]

Laura~ This is just my opinion. I have lost the least from our group, so take it for what it is worth. Also quit smoking too (and as you know, that is hard). Here goes: Until you (all of us) find out the "why" we eat the way we eat...we will always eat that way (or want to). You all know I am seeing a psychiatrist and he helps me get to the why of my food addictions. It is not enough to say "I am gonna do good today"...and that may be enough for some (lucky bastards). But for many of US, w/ weight issues...it is not enough. If you "binge" or go on food vacations...you have not figured out your "why". Again...this is my opinion. For resources on what I am talking about, look for information from Bob Greene (Oprah's guy). Food addiction is just that, an addiction. As w/ drugs or alcohol, we (most of us...not all) will be addicts for life. We will just figure out our "why"...and develop strategies that will help us in our day to day interactions.

Again, this is just my opinion. Also, you might want to take a walk to get the endorphins you are getting from the candy. Lastly, I am not judging you...I do it too. And I love you! Oh yeah, tell your hubby that your food intake...is off the table for discussion...it just makes you feel like shit. You know what your doing. (unless you want him to take into account your food...but why would you want to feel like shit all the time).

Happy 3rd day off! To those who have it!

Susie~My step sister went to UCSB, and my dear friend did from school. I've been and I LOVED IT. It is about 3 hours away, but when I can I'll make the trip!

xoxoxoxo

Gotta go find a quote of the day!

[TracyinKS 7]

Laura: I feel ya........... I am pretty dang happy in the size that I am, so you guessed it......... as soon as I could eat I have been eating all the crap again..... SELF SABOTAGE at its worst. Don't let it fool you....... Get your head back in the game......... set a goal for 220 then 209... I personally think with your legs and build that you will look super hawt at 199........... STRIPPER HAWT

Kat: I hope your feeling better... and how exciting about the PS!!!! you could go shopping for new clothes while we are on the river!

as for the email lady........... that is simply rude and quite frankly it lends me to believe that she is a very unhappy person who is taking aim at an easy target.

I have got to get cracken at work.........

[Daisalana 33]

You're right Pam, I initially was going to go to a psychiatrist about it when I was first banded (the band doc's shrink said they think I needed to) their patient waiting list was 2 months. Within 3 weeks of the appt. they called and had to cancel. So I just didn't reschedule. They're the only ones in the area my insurance pays for. Then I was doing so good, that I decided I didn't need it at the time. I know I do, but I also hate the idea of having to go to a shrink about food!!