I have to be the biggest failure here!

vessa · January 31, 2008

As far as failure goes, wellll... I got pregnant 3 weeks after I was banded (did great thru pregancy, gained very little) Lost thirty pounds in the month after, only to gain back 35 in the four months after that.

And well, I was feeling like a failure, pretty bad, I mean, the feeling of having to lose the weight again, AFTER the band? I had same story too, I emotionally ate, I STUFFED through the pain, anxiety, tiredness, happiness, you name it. I seen someone here said they neede a "Head BAnd" me too. My head is always hungry.

But, I'm back here, have been on for 3 weeks again, I'm tracking my food, I'm drinking my Water NOT DURING MY MEALS (ooh, that sneaky water can certainly help stuff down food!) I'm exercising an hour a day, and I have a personal goal (to not eat after 7 pm) which is when I ate 90% of my unnecessary calories. It's a huge struggle, but I feel 100% better than when I was hating myself for screwin' up my band. Having a new baby, I let circumstances take me over, and went back into bad habits. I seen the problem, I am taking it easier on myself, but I am NOT under any circumstances, being a victim of compulsive overeating again. I am too strong, too talented, food is a product to sustain me, not rule me. I am not weak. If I am a warrior, the band is my shield, my sword is my will to never suffer under the dictatorship of overeating again.

Messing up, but trying again, even in vain, is not failure. Failure is laying down and saying I'm too weak for this, I quit.

Please, if you are here, posting for help, you are not failing.

lisa_marie86 · January 31, 2008

One thing that I have found that works is how many times you eat. I don't know about you guys but I get these emails sent to me every few months about the lap band. One thing it said on there was you should only eat every 4 hours. So as for me my job is 7am-3:30pm. So in the morning I take my Vitamins and wait to eat Breakfast until 8am, at that time I usually have carrots or some kind of cheese with a meat (i am losing my hair so I have to eat meat with every meal). Then I do not eat again (not even a little cracker) until 12pm. At that time I usually have some kind of meat or chicken and a veggie. After that I normally do not eat until 5 just because I don't want to eat too early in the night where I am hungary before I go to bed. At five I usually have something like I had for lunch. I know I see a lot of you saying you are hungary but you have to train yourself to know what hungary is. I used to say I was hungary when really I was just bored. And trust me, I know it is hard. I am constantly surrounded by people at work that order out or bring food in to share. And honestly, I love saying no thanks. Just because it makes me feel good to know that I have that control to say that. Just remember, only 3 meals every 4 hours, that is sufficient if you pick the correct foods to eat! We all will get through this, I promise!!

bandster_1007 · January 31, 2008

i completely agree with you lisa marie, and i am totally able to do this when i am at my correct fill.

however, i don't know if it is the drying up of phlegm, or the starting of my bc again, but i do truly get hungry now between meals. i also started getting boredom hungry again, but i'm talking tummy growling, hungery pains, hungry..trying to talk myself out of it becuase i don't really have time to take a break hungry.

between my 2nd and 3rd fill i did not struggle with that at all, but now i am again. today i had my Protein bar for Breakfast (the whole thing) and 1 hour later, i'm hungry again. after a good fill, not only can i not finish a whole one, but i'm full for several hours.