Relapse Blues

[skinnymini 0]

Sorry It's taken me so long to post anything. I haven't been back on here because I've been ashamed. I've gained all my weight back plus 11 lbs. Granted I haven't had a fill since before I got pregnant. The baby is wonderful he is 9 months now. But I'm so angry with myself and I still owe my dr. $100 from the surgery. So I can't get a fill until I've paid him. I've been having a lot of financial difficulty, my husband and I just purchased our first house and then he lost his job, of course he brought in the most $. So it's reaking havoc with my psyche. I feel so fat it's ridiculous. and I kinda resent my husband for it, because I wanted to wait atleast a year after the surgery to get pregnant, but he was very adamant on wanting another child and I did promise him we'd have another after my first one turned 3. So he was riding my case. Apart of me feels he wanted me to gain weight back. He never wanted me to have the surgery in the first place. And my relationship is just starting to heal. I've been through a lot did something that could have costed my marriage but thankfully did not. I dont' know. I'm sorry I know you didn't ask for all this personal information but... I feel compelled to tell someone the truth and stop acting like everything is ok. I'm blessed to still be here and it's 2008, but I NEVER imagined I'd be this big. :think

:help:Skinnymini

[sob 0]

I am so sorry to hear your story, I am new to the forum and it is fantastic. Please call me at 713 962 3027 I have some information that could possibly help you and your husband's financial situation.

Sonia

[skinnymini 0]

Thanks Sonia, I really appreciate it, Could we possibly talk through Private Message or IM my screen name is thicknsexy0203. I've had it since college.

[sob 0]

That's fine I just need to figure out how to send a private message. If you could possibly send me some directions that will be great.

[skinnymini 0]

you go up to the top of the screen and click on user cp, on the left side of the screen you'll see a header called private messages about halfway down and under that it'll say send a message. that's how you can do that.

[stepoffaith 0]

I hope sob can help with the financial. I don't think you should feel ashamed. I am new to the forum but what I am getting from most everyone is the honesty. The ups and downs are part of our life and when we have to start over, well we do. Hang in there on your journey. 2008 is the year for new beginnings. This is yours.-My computer keeps glitching hope this doesn't post twice.

[DonHoll1 0]

Hope things get better for you in the new year. Donna

[sob 0]

I tried to send you a private message but it said user not found. You can e-mail me at sobannerjackson @yahoo.com if you like. Take Care! I am willing to share.

[stepoffaith 0]

OK skinnymini, don't give up on us. I know I am willing to listen and I think sometimes sharing is a big part of the solution. It is hard to admit our feelings to others and you made that first step so don't give up. Your baby is a doll by the way.

[skinnymini 0]

Good Morning Everyone! Here it is a week later and I'm feeling a lot better about things. I'm going to get my fill today and this year is going to be a new year for me. A hell of a year for me!!! My mom is getting married in June and I plan to be atleast 2 dress sizes smaller by then. I think that's a feasible goal. Thank you to everyone who had kind words for me and all those who read and felt my pain.

Skinny:whoo:

[skinnymini 0]

It's finally done. I have 2.5 cc's in a 10 cc band with .5 cc's to be added as early as next week if I have no restriction, and 2 months if I do have restriction. Looking forward to posting new weight loss. I'm so happy!!! I ate about a quarter of a cup of broccoli and cheese Soup and after that drank some chicken broth. Had a little ice cream for dessert. :spider: But nothing remotely close to what I had been eating before the fill. I'm glad and God is definately still on the throne.:hail:

Thanks everyone for bearing with me through my rant!:eek: I'll try to update as early as next week. For a new scale change hopefully.:clap2: However Aunt Flo is threating Water weight

Until then Bandsters!!! Adios and happy eating!!!:whoo:

[Crishell 0]

Hello. Glad things are looking up for you & your family and that you were able to get a fill. What a beautiful baby. I will keep you in my prayer's.

[Laura_MD 5]

What area of Maryland do you live in? I live in Salisbury (on the eastern shore near Ocean City). I wonder how disbursed we are because it would be great to do things like clothing swaps, etc. if we can find common ground and enough people.

Laura:cool2: