feelin' Blue

[MNilene 2]

HI all,

Didn't wnat to jump into the New Year feeling down...But,

I'm not even at 2 full weeks out, was banded 12/20.

Everywhere I look & see people eating, big people, I think, why did I do this, why couldn't I just be fat & happy like them, why do they get to EAT??? Why can they eat & eat & it's just okay.

I know that wihtin a few short weeks I too will be eating real food again, hell, I've evn lost 10 pounds already, but I still can't shake this feeling :cry

Happy & HEalthy new year to everyone!

Ilene

[valstar 0]

Hi Illene,

I know the feeling. The good news is, it will pass as will this holiday season of gluttony. Focus on the fact that you are moving towards better health and probably a longer life. The food that you are missing would be gone in a minute. Which would you rather have? The other thing to try to do is to separate head hunger from physical hunger and respond with food only to the physical hunger. I know, it's easier said than done but it can be done and we are here to support you and encourage you! Good luck with your journey. I am 4 months out fro surgery and I still feel like this was the best decision I have made!

Happy New Year!

Valerie

[METALBAND 0]

I remember feeling the same way. Once you start to lose and feel better you will realize you made the right choice. We hall have had the "What the hell did I do" moments.

You are in what is known as bandster hell....it will not last long!

I promise you it gets much better!

Metal

[soozan 0]

GO WRITE ABOUT IT.

Pen an email to yourself, a longer post here, a Word doc saved to your desktop....get it out and on paper. It really does help.

One: it will give you something to do

Two: you can read it in a few weeks and see how far you've come.

Turn on tv if you are home and watch a New Years Special.

This is YOUR celebration!!!!!!! You made this decision to be a healthier you. 2008 is coming in a few hours and you are ALREADY healthier!!

I hope you feel better!

[lachica39 0]

my first day of surgery I was reading my post-op diet for the 100th time and I became sad, scared and cried . I wanted to call that damn Dr. and tell him to take this s--t out of me. I was thinking of an excuse to get it out, the same thought came back to me the next day, stupid me I was on the site looking over complications (will never go back there) and I was thinking of the what ifs can happen 5-10 years from now. I wanted this s--t out. I was freaking out and keeping it to myself. I finally told my husband and kids what I was going through and they reassured me I made the right decision.

it passed, I am 5 days out and am so excited and ready for this.

When you feel like banding was a mistake, think of all the things you will be able to do when you are healthier.

I have a goal set for 2008, camping ,hiking with my family and how hot I am going to look in my shorts. ok and my health lol

you to will come get through this, I know I will be going through emotional up and downs, but with support, great people from this site you will be ok.

god bless you and happy new year

SC

banded 12/26/07

[KarenG. 0]

Poor you. I felt really depressed for a few weeks after the surgery. I think it causes some mild depression in some people. I felt GREAT after that though and you will too. Take care of yourself.

HI all,

Didn't wnat to jump into the New Year feeling down...But,

I'm not even at 2 full weeks out, was banded 12/20.

Everywhere I look & see people eating, big people, I think, why did I do this, why couldn't I just be fat & happy like them, why do they get to EAT??? Why can they eat & eat & it's just okay.

I know that wihtin a few short weeks I too will be eating real food again, hell, I've evn lost 10 pounds already, but I still can't shake this feeling :cry

Happy & HEalthy new year to everyone!

Ilene

[Sue Magoo 71]

Ilene:

I went through food withdrawal too. I got very depressed, then went through the bitchy stage. Exercise helps because it gets you focused on something that is positive instead of thinking about the "what I can't have's".

I'm 5 months out and glad that I did it, and look forward to a much healthier 2008.

Time will help these sad feelings pass.

Take care.

Sue

[jasmona1214 0]

Lachic39, have you already lost 14lbs.in 2 weeks?

[Lin12/20/07 0]

Just hang in there! It will pass. I was banded on 12/20 also & had a new years eve party at my house. And, only my immediate family knows I'm banded. It almost got to me too- I really wanted some of that really really "good" food! But, I look at this almost as my "last chance" to get it right. I've got to do it this time & I've got to do it right! Someone else said the season of gluttony will pass- so true! And, just think, as hard as it was to be banded in December, January should be much easier to take because everyone elses annual diets start today! So when they've given up by the end of January, we'll still be going and losing! This too shall pass..............

[juliegeraci 7]

Ilene, in time those feeling will go away. Eating like a bandster is wonderful once you get good restriction. I don't miss food nearly as much as I thought I would.

[MNilene 2]

THANKS so MUCH for all your thought & support!

Being that I will also be returning to work tommorrow will help take my mind off of food & get me back on schedule with my life & allow things to fall into place. Also knowing I go back for a post op exam on Thursaday & will be able to each mushies helps too! LOL

Ilene

[Done 2]

HI all,

Didn't wnat to jump into the New Year feeling down...But,

I'm not even at 2 full weeks out, was banded 12/20.

Everywhere I look & see people eating, big people, I think, why did I do this, why couldn't I just be fat & happy like them, why do they get to EAT??? Why can they eat & eat & it's just okay.

I know that wihtin a few short weeks I too will be eating real food again, hell, I've evn lost 10 pounds already, but I still can't shake this feeling :cry

Happy & HEalthy new year to everyone!

Ilene

((((hugs)))

I totally know how you feel. I have gone through the exact same feelings. I wish I could eat like everybody else. I wish I could have cream of mushroom Soup chicken and noodles for dinner like my kids had last night. There are so many things that I wish I could have again. BUT....then I think of the consequences of all of my previous actions:

1. my knees crack going up/down the stairs, crack when I sit down, it's an awful feeling (and I am only 33)

2. the intense swelling and pressure in my lower legs/calves

3. the high blood pressure I now have

4. the high cholesterol I now have

5. the lack of sex / intimacy with dh

6. getting out of breath easily

7. kidney problems

8. everything hurts

9. GERD

10. aggravating pre-existing depression

There are so many other things that are wrong with me right now ... this is what I get for eating like a horse. I don't want to have these problems anymore.

I hope this helps somewhat....

[Justin 0]

Im 3 days in and its hard now. A lot of people will tell you that you will feel better after loosing the weight. Thats NOT my motivation. I have to be honest, I will be loosing weight, I will be eating healthy, but not 100% of the time. Im thinking one day a week is my day. I wont e able to overeat, but I will choose what I want over what I should have for one day. Its to keep sanity. Most people with successful diets will tell you the same. Im hungry, and blue too, but I am looking forward to my tuna sushi when the time comes. Its hard, but you are not alone.

[Boo Boo Kitty 3]

Ilene

It gets better hunny! You will soon come to this place where you no longer think why can't I eat that, but WHY ARE THEY EATING THAT. You have set out to change your life forever, it is ok to be anxious, depressed or scared. It is all worth it!

Hugs!