Loss of weight has not helped me feel more confident

[IAMPERFECTION2 4]

This comment has me reeling and questioning everything up to this point. I've always attracted both men and female attention. I was a very confident person. I never had a weight problem, I spent 8 years in the army and I exercised and ate pretty good. When my bestfriend of 15 years forced himself on me.... I lost myself, a few years later I was obese. I was relieved to become invisible. The attention that once gave me validation, was the source of my anxiety. I thought I'd worked though my issues and I had the sleeve surgery in 2018, lost 50 pounds, however after a miscarriage and poor eating habits quickly gained the all the weight back. I recently decided to go to Turkey to be re-sleeved. Not for attention but for my health. I'm set to be re-sleeved in 14 days and I'm trying to figure out how not to self sabotage my weight-loss. I wrote all this to say you're beautiful inside and out. You deserve to be healthy. Losing 125 pounds is AMAZING, don't allow depression and anxiety to rob you of the beautiful life you deserve.

[pintsizedmallrat 473]

I find your issues with attention very relatable; I am happily married (and demisexual) and the attention is absolutely unwanted. There are times I wish I could zip my fat back on when I go out alone.