Silly N00b!!!

[TabithasMom 0]

Hi

My name is Cindy, I got got my referral sent in to the bariatric surgery center that my health plan Kaiser uses. I am just in the beginning stages and I am waiting, and reading and waiting and reading.

I love online forums for support. They are so so very helpful to me because I can pop on at any time and read or see encouraging words.

a little about me:

I am a 37 year old mom of a fiesty toddler named Tabitha (hence the username )

I went through 3 years of infertility treatments and 3 miscarriages to get her.

All those drugs and the depression that comes along with infertility and I packed on 80 pounds easily in 3 years. I currently weigh 260

which is 30 LBS higher than the day that I delivered her.

I would like to be able to have another baby before I am too old to do so. For many many reasons, I just dont think that the RNY is for me.

I am ready to step into my new life and start again. I don't like being too fat to get up the stairs without huffing and puffing. I don't like not being able to chase my girl around, I don't want to be the fat mom when I take her to kindergarten. I don't want to be embarrassed anymore, I don't want to be invisible anymore, I want to feel sexy again, I want to want sex again (which right now I don't because I don't want DH to touch me because I feel too fat), I want to buy clothes at a regular store, I just want to be free.

Oh my, I guess I went on a bit didn't I?

Well, good bad or ugly. I am here, I look forward to the journey with you.

[kacee 3]

Well hey, T's Mom....welcome to ya! You're at the right place and you can arm yourself with all the info you're going to need in your new life. There's someone around every corner here who's been there and done that, and we'll be happy to escort you into BandLand!!!

[Kat817 19]

Welcome to LBT!!!

Sounds like you have a list of valid reasons to look forward to being banded!

I cannot tell you how much I love my band! Even though my weight loss has slowed, I know this could never have happened without the little silicone fist wrapped around my stomach!

The idea of not feeling a constant need to eat---was absolutely foreign to me. It has been a Godsend!

We look forward to watching you make your way into bandland. Don't be a stranger, keep reading, and learning, and preparing. If you have any questions, feel free to ask--and if you don't get an answer, ask again, oftentimes this board moves pretty fast, and things can get buried quickly.

Welcome aboard!! Let the losing begin!

Kat

[TabithasMom 0]

Thank you everyone for the warm welcome. I have been reading like a fiend!!!

I called the surgery center today to see what the status is of my referral.

There, of course, seems to be some confusion as to what place I am at.

The referral is in their computer but my GP sent it with a message that she is waiting for a psych workup first so they will not schedule the orientation until that is cleared up. OF COURSE they didnt say anything to me about it, I had to call and find out on my own. I need to remember with Kaiser that I am my own best advocate and sitting by and letting things happen to me rather than making them happen is not the way that it works.

I had to knock a few heads together and call the psych department myself and schedule the appointment instead of waiting for them to call me. If I were to wait for them to call me god only knows when they would get to it.

OK, Time to get on with it! I cant wait to be a loser.

I have a local friend who is almost the same stage that I am, we are kind of doing this hand in hand. It is so wonderful to have a friend in this with me. My DH doesnt understand because he is a skinny, has always been a skinny and has no idea what it is like to be a prisoner inside your body!

:faint:

[ConnieC 0]

As I was KISSING on my Boo Boo kitty I happened on your post and showed him your kitty....Are you a Kitty Person also?

I have 2 and they are a great comfort to me especially when I'm stressed.

Good luck to you and your Journey.

Connie:clap2:

[TabithasMom 0]

He is my kittyman!! He is 15 years old and has been a comfort and a joy to me for a very long time.

thank you for the compliment on my kittyman!!!

My first furbaby: JessieBear

[misspeesh95621 0]

It was nice to talk to you in the chat rooms! Good luck to you. Let me know when you get a date I bet that we will be close to eachother.

[DonHoll1 0]

People here understand what you are feeling. Most of us have felt the same things. Let us know when you get a date. Donna

[TabithasMom 0]

I have been waiting a long time but finally I get to go to my seminar tomorrow. I finally came clean with the Hubby and told him what I was considering and seems ok with it. At least at the moment.

On My Way and Very Happy