I am so f*cked. Rebound sugar and carb cravings.

[ShoppGirl 5,055]

On 5/10/2021 at 9:51 PM, perfektlynrml said:

I just downloaded this book. I’m going to work on it tonight. Still very anxious and fighting the urge to take an edible. I know why I’m doing it. It takes away all my thought and I escape from my anxiety for a few hours. I’m going to search for a therapist that will take my coverage tomorrow.

If you find it as difficult as I did to find one local keep in mind that one good thing that came out of this pandemic is telehealth. You just have to find someone In the same state and you can do phone conferences with them.

[perfektlynrml 185]

7 hours ago, lizonaplane said:

There is a lot here. I'm glad you're doing better. Exercise is really good for your mood! I'm glad it's working for you! And losing weight does make us feel ill at ease in our new bodies. I remember when I lost 100 lbs years ago I didn't feel like me anymore... I couldn't figure out how to dress myself, I didn't know how to sit anymore, or how to hold myself... everything was just wrong. I just heard a podcast about this. It's from Australia, but I can't remember the name of it. Anyway, you're so right that most of the work is emotional. Good for you that you're facing it head on!

I finally went shopping for clothing at a non plus size store. I ended up buying in the largest size but it was too big. I am still not recognizing my new body shape and I assume that I am bigger. I am continuing to meditate with music. As I was meditating today I realized that I feel a sense of panic when the sensation of fullness goes away. I have always needed to be full in order to sleep and relax in the past. Today I substituted a few rounds of deep breathing to calm myself down. It worked! I favorited the music station for easy access when I need a time out. I’m going to be okay if I just give myself the chance to adapt to my changes.