depressed but motivated

victoriamal · August 27, 2003

ive had bad news-seems i have a cardi infection in the muscles near my heart and my cardiologist says i must wait for banding at least 2 months-im so bummed!!!!!! i had to call the dr yesterday and ask them to give my surgery date to someone else-this felt like one of the hardest things ive ever had to do....i have been waiting, excitedly and now this.but as my dr said i must be in tip top shape or complications-which i do not need.i quess 2 more months will not make that much of a difference-but will fill like a lifetime to me!pleusiry sounds like something really old fashion huh? to all with surgery for this week good luck you all will be in my thoughts-wishing it was me.i will keep you all posted and still be here while im waiting and healing cause this board is a miracle to me! victoria

Lulu · August 27, 2003

Dear Victoria,

My heart aches for your! I'm waiting to hear from the insurance company, and it seems like a lifetime. But one thing - on a positive note - I'm learning more patience as a result. My first thought is always I WANT THIS NOW! But since it isn't happening according to my time-table and I have no control over it, the one thing I can control is how I eat in the meantime. Trying to lose a little more BEFORE surgery to make the process go faster afterwards. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

glenda6 · August 27, 2003

Victoria, there is probably nothing that anyone can really say that would make a difference. I know from experience that wiaitng is the hardest - I was postponed for 2 weeks because there was no hospital beds. I think the fact that they found something wrong now at least should prevent complications after your surgery - I guess that is the main consolation.

Good luck and try not to sit around watching the time go by.

Glenda

victoriamal · August 30, 2003

thanks girls for the kind thoughts-it really depressed me because i had mentally and physically got myself ready did everything got insurance approval than to be told it could be months before my heart is ready for this!i was to use the surgery as a tool because im so hungry all the time.i have done really well so far but needed this tool.im depressed but will stay on track and let myself heal and continue in my weight loss journey.good luck to all with upcoming surgeries you will all be in my thoughts and prayers-victoria:)

claraluz · August 30, 2003

Victoria,

I'm sorry. The waiting can be so hard. On the other hand, I'm glad they found out about your infection prior to surgery. And the time really will pass. I promise.

Nancy

August 31, 2003

Hi Victoria, So sorry to hear about your delay. However, it is better to address any medical problems before being banded. A two month delay must seem like an eternity however it's just a matter of days! Keep your positve attitude!

Bren

victoriamal · August 31, 2003

thank you-im upset about it also but must take this time to heal.i so wanta this ...yesterday!i will try to do what i can on my own during the next 2 months or so and pray i can get a surgery date quickly again.im joining yoga this week so i can be that much closer.

victoriamal · August 31, 2003

thank you my hometown buddy-i will stay on track-just a few months behind schedule-im starting yoga and will continue on with trying while im healing-big bummer for me ...