youd think after almost 14 months

[candy8360 0]

I know I had a bad day Monday. I was all set for my surgery to be Tuesday, the 27th, then the doctor's office called and told me that they had to reschedule me for NEXT tuesday. The night before I had gone through such a turmoil, not being able to sleep, knowing that my life was going to change so dramatically. But, also excited and looking forward to the changes. Then, they call and reschedule me! I've been on two weeks of liquids, and felt very rebellious and went out to eat that night. Made me feel somewhat better (part of the reason I'm overweight now, comfort eating!!!) but also guilty at the same time. I'm back on my liquids now and ready for NEXT tuesday. Just praying that they don't reschedule AGAIN!!! I've come to the conclusion though that nothing ever goes exactly like you want it to, and somehow I've got to learn to deal with these things some other way than turning to food.< /p>

[NanaRenan 0]

We are all human. These are not 'bad times'...they're excusable momentary lapses of reason.

ooooh! What she said!!!

girl, that's GOOD, I'm gonna be borrowin' that!

losingjusme, don't be too hard on yourself. food was your (OUR!) comfort for SO many years. No reason to think it wouldn't be the first place we still turn. I'm gonna pray for you. I know what its like to go through bad stuff -- ESPECIALLY when DH is away, isn't that always when the feces hits the fan?

candy -- Girl, I feel ya! I had my surgery rescheduled TWICE, too. First time I was prepped and about to go into OR, second time I was in OR and OUT, I can't begin to tell you how I felt when they woke me up and sent me home withOUT a band!!! It'll happen, just be patient.

[candy8360 0]

Oh Nana, I would have REALLY been upset if I had gone through that! I would have probably had to find a new surgeon, because the one I have would have dumped me for the fussing out I would have given him!!! I'm so glad I didn't get that far. At least they DID call me before I did the bowel prep!

[NanaRenan 0]

I guess I handled it okay. (I tho't I was REALLY upset.) But when I finally quit crying long enough and called the surgeon's office after the SECOND date to see when we would reschedule and to insist that I never lay eyes on that Anest. again, they seemed genuinely shocked to hear from me.

She said the Doctor had told them about it and had guessed I would blow the whole thing off. I was like, "Oh Hell No! I didn't get this close to quit NOW!"

LOL

[candy8360 0]

You and I sound a lot alike - we have come too far to back away now!

[hollyu48 0]

Its ok to melt once in awhile. It will not destroy everything you have done for yourself this far. Just start al over again tommorrow. WE all have the tendancy to self medicate when life sucks. Just don't let it happen very often and you will be fine