Body Dysmorphia

[apiane 174]

Hey ya'll. I have a question. First, some background...

My whole life I was very small. 115 lbs was my heaviest (I'm 5' 3.5") and I always thought I was too small. But that's who I was. When I was 19 I was diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder, and put on Seroquel. Anyone who knows that drug knows that it's known for weight gain. WELL, I gained 100 lbs in just over a year. At first I was excited at the weight gain because I finally had some curves. But then it got out of control. I ate healthy and weight just poured on. I didn't (and still don't) recognize myself in the mirror.

I guess my question is, do you think when I go down I'll recognize myself again? Or will the body dysmorphia stay the same and I won't feel like my old self. I'm not planning on going down that far... I'd like to be around 145 or whatever I think looks good.

Any insight would be appreciated.

[allwet 868]

this varies greatly from person to person even if they dont have other medical issues affecting there thought processes.

i still see my father in the mirror looking back at me. its better with time but at first i could startle myself if i saw my reflection suddenly. it is a very odd feeling to not see yourself but i i am slowly getting used to me being me now and not the me i remember from years ago. i had avoided mirrors for several years and did anything i could to avoid pictures.

if you feel this is going to hurt you in the long run i suggest you seek help to process these new feeling.

good luck

[apiane 174]

14 hours ago, allwet said:

this varies greatly from person to person even if they dont have other medical issues affecting there thought processes.

i still see my father in the mirror looking back at me. its better with time but at first i could startle myself if i saw my reflection suddenly. it is a very odd feeling to not see yourself but i i am slowly getting used to me being me now and not the me i remember from years ago. i had avoided mirrors for several years and did anything i could to avoid pictures.

if you feel this is going to hurt you in the long run i suggest you seek help to process these new feeling.

good luck

I have a therapist I go to often so I'll be able to talk it out. Thanks for sharing your experience.

[Frustr8 7,886]

And I am starting to resemble dead relatives. So far my Mama, my Aunt Grace and now I mostmy look like my maternal grandmother, who was maybe 5ft4in if she would stand on her tippy-toes and I am a much taller person. So I guess I will wave as I go by , sweet thing that I am! Hi Grandma Cora!