My Journey

[kimberlydpv 15]

I am 58 years old and have had a lap band for 11 years. The fact that I am in this forum shows that I was not successful and have now gone through a year of analysis to see if I qualify for bypass surgery. My surgery day is June 10th and I have one week of slim fast under my belt. Needless to say I am HUNGRY. Unlike some other places I have not been allowed any meals and can have 4 shakes a day along broth and sugar free Jello. I have decided to post a pic I took today and even though I would never have approved it for publication I want to be honest.

[Frustr8 7,886]

Honesty is always to be preferred. You will do just fine, make this last week count, you have come too far to have cold feet now! Yeah the pre-diet does seem rough, but it is SO SO WORTH IT! I shrunk my liver down, it was lovely, thin, did not look like it was from a " Fatty" my surgeon complimented me on it, made his work easier and I healed quicker and smoother, pain-free, really did wonderful then. And I did mine the entire month of August 2018, wanted the best results possible for my Surgery of a Lifetime! And I was 72 years, 8 months, 8 days old, if there were bad outcomes to be had I would be the person to have them, 72 on the outside but he said" no more than 45 internally" what a compliment that was! And now I am 73 and 5 months old, still healing and losing, and this morning in deep God and this life are both pretty good. Have gone from Morbid Obesity to Obesity and just ready to tip over into Overweight, a DREAM COME TRUE for this lady who didn't think she deserved anything THIS FINE!
Was told for years I was fat, disgusting and desrved to die that way. Told I was in my last few years of life, would likely never see 75, I was a walking time bomb for inherited Diseases. Daddy hard hereditary glaucoma, Mama had macular degeneration so I could look forward to blindness as well! Barely could stand up, my then Philosophy? Why stand when you can sit? Why sit when you can lay down? And why even get up when you know every step will hurt? I was just waiting for the Death Angel 👼 to claim me as his own! It was with the last bit of hope I sought surgery, expecting to be told I was too old and broken- down to receive item But why not try? Even if I died on the Operating Table I was gonna die anyway!
But here I am now, 115 pounds lighter, my recovery has not been picture -perfect. but it's Still Good and the bumps in my pathway are flattening out, so I feel I am still a success. Come join me, it's always nice to have a friend who shares your burdens. Come on in, the waters are warm, no sharks , no glass on the bottom to hurt you, and it's pretty doggone fine here in RNY Land🌸😛🌺🍀

[kimberlydpv 15]

OMG thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement. I don't understand why people that think that they can treat us like that. I too have been through depression and I'm still on meds hopefully I can get off those someday.

I don't know why some surgeons let you have small meals each day While others like in Ontario make you not eat at all. I don't know how you did this for a month did you cheat? I went to a barbecue on the weekend on while I sat inside when everyone ate I did have a few nachos with some homemade guacamole. And one evening last week I had Tomato Soup and crackers. I have a stomach ache and diarrhea and have had to start taking Imodium. I think part of the problem is I'm not drinking any Water cuz I find it I have to remind myself.

My mom's side of the family is all bigger and several my family members have had the surgery. I haven't shared my journey with anybody in my family yet although I suspect once they start seeing new pictures of me y'all guess what happened.

My dad had many forms of arthritis and died at age 65. I have osteoarthritis severe in my hands which sucks because I use a computer all day at work.

Congratulations on your successful Journey so far and thank you very much for the nice words sharing your intimate stories.

When I started the fasting I had questioned my decision but I too feel like what I've done so far in the past hasn't worked and I'm not going to live forever.

I find the story encouraging and I'm glad I took this first step towards sharing my story.

[Carrot64 214]

My surgeon asked me with such sincerity to follow the liver shrinking protocol diet so I’d have the best outcome given my huge hiatal hernia.. I dug in knowing changing my behavior was a huge part of my success... I knew my surgery was only a tool and that it would still require a lot of work on my part... I’m in it to win it and cheating would mean cheating myself.. I’ve said it before .. if there was a food quota o hit my pizza and chocolate quota like 20 years ago , so... I’m all set . If anyone k ew the old me you would think it was a miracle that I could change my behavior .

Edited June 4, 2019 by Carrot64

[kimberlydpv 15]

Thanks Carrot64. I went back on track yesterday and have decided I'm not going to put myself in a situation where I can't control myself. I I think part of the problem is that I was fasting for 3 days as my surgery was scheduled for June 3rd and then it was rescheduled for June 10th and then I was able to eat for another three days had to start all over again. so I'd gone through three days of not eating and being on track when my surgery changed and was upset and frustrated

[Frustr8 7,886]

Oh that would do it in Spades, just be Your Best You, the World should not demand more than that, and if it does , Pfft the World and all in it! Feisty broad, aren't I? You. can stand in manure only so long before you can't stand the smell and you got to crawl out!