Climbing back on the wagon - Advice?

[coyote 93]

Hey y'all!

I'll be 2 years post-op in July and I've fallen off the wagon. I never experienced the huge weight loss that I saw many people here experience, and I had a lot of life stressors that quickly made me run back to bad habits. I don't blame the sleeve at all - it's only a tool after all, and it can only work miracles if I allow it to. In fact, even without the extreme weight loss it's probably been the best decision I've ever made for myself. I've been able to maintain an 55lb loss, and the sleeve keeps my eating mostly in check, but that's not enough for me. I didn't go through months of pain and suffering only to lose 2 pants sizes and one shirt size.

I've been fatigued, depressed, and unmotivated for the past two years. Getting up in the morning took all the strength I had, and my joint and muscle pain never went away like my doctors had surmised. I had relationship problems, job problems, and turned back to the only friend that's consistently been there for me (food). Honestly, 2017 Coyote wasn't prepared for this surgery. I wasn't ready (or in the best state of mind) to put in the work.

I had labs done in January and my Iron and Vitamin-D2 levels were at critically low levels and I was prescribed Wellbutrin which was supposed to help with my weight loss. I have a new job, my relationship situation is improving, and I want to focus on myself again. I've opened a gym membership and I'm actually enrolling in therapy this time. I'm cooking meals at home and avoiding any food establishment with a drive-thru. I still feel like I've failed.

Sleevers, how can I climb back on that wagon when it feels like it's miles ahead of me and I'll never catch up?

Has anyone flubbed their weight loss but managed to get it together years later?

Desperately looking for answers,

Coyote

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[coyote 93]

Thank you all so much!

I've been avoiding coming back here because I was afraid of people totally railing me for not sticking to the program... I don't do well with tough love! But I realized it's me that I've been afraid of. I've been my absolute worst enemy, and I constantly tell myself I'm worthless and knew I'd fail. I'd never let someone else treat me that way, so why I do I do this to myself?

Thanks to you all for your support. I'm officially heading back on track and I'm so excited about that. I went to the grocery store this afternoon and picked up so many bariatric-friendly foods and have started reading sleeve stories about failure and redemption. I know I can do it, and I think you all will start seeing me around here again.

Coyote

Edited May 13, 2019 by coyote

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14 minutes ago, coyote said:

Thank you all so much!

I've been avoiding coming back here because I was afraid of people totally railing me for not sticking to the program... I don't do well with tough love! But I realized it's me that I've been afraid of. I've been my absolute worst enemy, and I constantly tell myself I'm worthless and knew I'd fail. I'd never let someone else treat me that way, so why I do I do this to myself?

Thanks to you all for your support. I'm officially heading back on track and I'm so excited about that. I went to the grocery store this afternoon and picked up so many bariatric-friendly foods and have started reading sleeve stories about failure and redemption. I know I can do it, and I think you all will start seeing me around here again.

Coyote

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