Moment of weakness, grateful for my surgery

[Swanton_Bomb 522]

I had some pizza today. Not the worst sin, but a potential trigger for me. I am so grateful for he restriction I felt after just a few small bites. I grew the rest away instead of saving the leftovers. I don’t know why I did it. I’ve been so good, and it’s too early to mess up. It tasted too good and I am so scared that when restrictions fades I will balloon up again. I have been working hard to work on my head, but I still think about food so much. It is sick how much I love food.

[Orchids&Dragons 9,047]

Everybody stumbles. It's what you do after that makes the difference. You threw out the leftovers - SCORE!

Edited January 10, 2019 by Orchids&Dragons

[Swanton_Bomb 522]

Thank you, I needed to hear that. I felt really badly, not because a few bites of pizza are so terrible but because it is like an alcoholic just taking a sip, you know?

[Orchids&Dragons 9,047]

25 minutes ago, Swanton_Bomb said:

Thank you, I needed to hear that. I felt really badly, not because a few bites of pizza are so terrible but because it is like an alcoholic just taking a sip, you know?

Definitely. But if you hold yourself to a "perfect" standard, you're bound to fail sometimes. We all need to practice getting back on the wagon after a misstep. I know I am prone to the "I already blew it for today, so what the hell" attitude. And then one day turns into the rest of the week, rest of the month, etc. That's what I love about these forums, we understand each other.

Remember, alcoholics don't "need" alcohol, but we all need to eat.