Emotional Babble

[Mystalia 0]

Hello to all - Okay here is my babble for the day. I was banded in February and to date have lost 46 lbs. However, from July to now, it has been a real struggle finding the right fill. I have gone from some how losing all my fill to being too tight and just about vomiting a lung. I am very pleased with the way that I am beginning to look and the way my clothes are fitting. However, I know that I am still far from my goal. Of course the upcoming holidays raise the only ugly fears - should I loosen the fill, should I maintain the fill and just have to be very very careful????? Oh, the debate with my mind!!!! I am currently at a 1.8 cc and unless I stay on Soups and very soft food, nothing stays down and I really don't lose weight. If I try solids (meat, chicken not pureed), up it comes!!! So I am thinking I am a little tight. But I want to keep the weight loss going. Today I was so stressed, that I ate an entire bag of chips (not the small kind either) and a bag of M&M's (the small bag). I guess my question comes down to, I'm sure that there are many people who have gone through this and struggled with these same questions. Any advice, kind words, kicks in my butt to get my over this?

Best,

Debbie

banded 2/20/07

218-172-115

[Marimaru 7]

Well, you kind of said it yourself. You want to keep the weight loss going, but you ate a bag of chips. You're better off getting an unfill and eating solid meat n' stuff.