Imshrinking88 13 Posted June 2, 2018 Hello everyone, This is my rant about myself! Today I feel like I have failed myself.... For the last 2 weeks I have been doing really well with watching the intake and monitoring my meals. I have been pushing myself to walk as much as possible. I have even lost 5 lbs so far. Tonight I stood in my kitchen and eat my daughters leftover Chinese food my mom had got her when she took her the other night, on top of that I had a bagel. Now as I sit here writing this I feel extremely stupid for one but I also feel very disappointed in myself. Mind you all I have just started this process to surgery, it is all still so new and fresh... I have been working on getting my pre-op testing done and losing the weight the doctor has requested. I was told I would probably have surgery toward October. This is so hard to express honestly, also it is hard to explain to my family and friends. I never realized how much food truly is an addiction.... I am addicted to food... Seems so silly to say that, but it is so true. I really thought my head was 100% in this and focused on losing the weight.. I know that struggles are definitely normal but its been 2 weeks and I feel pathetic.. How did everyone focus on keeping on track when temptations are close by? Foods that curve a craving? I am sorry is this seems all over the place! 2 ProudGrammy and Pearldrop reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BrookeR 25 Posted June 2, 2018 Do you have to be on an all liquid diet before the surgery? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
oopsydaisy 40 Posted June 2, 2018 Hi Don't be so hard on yourself! We forgive ourselves and move on. The pre-op diet isn't easy. If it was, we probably wouldn't need the doctors or the surgery anyway. Try to keep temptations at bay- no reason to keep the left over chinese or Bagels around This is really terrible and I shouldn't even admit it, but I will. If it's tempting me and I'm having trouble resisting it, I shove it right in the trash. (much to the dismay of my kids, sometimes. lol.) No one is touching that! ew! 1 1 ProudGrammy and Pearldrop reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Imshrinking88 13 Posted June 2, 2018 BrookeR, Yes I was told 2 full weeks prior to surgery I would be on all liquids. I’m only on going on month 4 of my dieting Oopsydaisy, Thank you! It’s so hard with kids I hate not letting them have stuff but at this point everyone eating healthy is what it is going to have to be! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CaribeRidge 104 Posted June 2, 2018 You should take a look at this video on you tube. She also has a book which I borrowed from the library. I think she hits the nail right on the head about food addictions. A lot of the things she says I see happening to me. I think it might give you some insight into any food addictions you might have. Vera Tarman: Food Junkies The more knowledge you have, the more power you have over it. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Imshrinking88 13 Posted June 2, 2018 Thank you CaribeRidge! I will check it out! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pearldrop 164 Posted June 2, 2018 It’s ok, this is hard. It’s important to be kind to yourself and try to understand why you eat what you eat. The more you understand and learn the more likely you are to succeed 2 ProudGrammy and Imshrinking88 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BrookeR 25 Posted June 2, 2018 The pre op diet is rough the first week. And honestly it has been harder for me these last few days rather than the first week. But you CAN do it sister! Temptations will always be around you. I still cook dinner for my husband and kids because I need to learn to eat to live instead of live to eat. We are addicts. We are going to have set backs. You recognized it and are moving on. Don’t beat yourself up about it. We are all here for you!!! 2 ProudGrammy and Imshrinking88 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Imshrinking88 13 Posted June 2, 2018 You really said that well!! Really means a lot and I’m so thankful I’m not alone! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
newmebithebypass 713 Posted June 2, 2018 Hon I know how hard the struggle can be I'm almost 2 1/2 weeks away from my final with my nutritionist and I'm just now changing habits fully ok hon you're gonna be ok Sent from my SM-T380 using BariatricPal mobile app 1 ProudGrammy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Imshrinking88 13 Posted June 2, 2018 I feel as if I will never lose the weight I am required too.. it’s definitely a challenge but I need! Thank you! Good luck to you Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
browneyez42 280 Posted June 3, 2018 I feel as if I will never lose the weight I am required too.. it’s definitely a challenge but I need! Thank you! Good luck to you You just hit a bump in the road. Pick yourself up, dust off and get back on track. You're doing great by making the first step to have surgery. We have all battled the dreaded food addiction, but you can and will overcome it. When you get to the two week pre-op diet, that's when you will need to draw all your mental strength to get through it... that's harder than recovering from surgery. Don't beat yourself up. Start over. Sleeves on April 25, 2018HW: 256SW: 238CW: 222GW: 165 1 ProudGrammy reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Imshrinking88 13 Posted June 3, 2018 I’m so thankful to have found this app! Everyone here is so amazing! It’s so nice to not be alone feeling these feelings 1 Pearldrop reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
browneyez42 280 Posted June 3, 2018 I’m so thankful to have found this app! Everyone here is so amazing! It’s so nice to not be alone feeling these feelings Yes, you can always vent here.Sleeved on April 25, 2018HW: 256SW: 238CW: 220GW: 165 1 Frustr8 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Frustr8 7,886 Posted June 13, 2018 food is sneaky,it doesn't want to release its hold on you, bad news , fast food has no conscience, it doesn't care what,it does to you. Since you do care, ignore that leftover's sneaky sweet song, better to throw it out than to end up wearing it as another fat layer to discard, and it is a whole lot harder to pull it off then it was to put it on. Grit your teeth, say I'm bigger than you , better than you, and I refuse to be the size of a pumpkin for,my October surgery! You can do this, claim victory 1 day at a time, and the days to m9nths, mothers make a year and you will be a Victoreous,Veteran Person, we will all cheer with you! 1 Krista27 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites